The Journal

Chapter 15

"Where ?" Nate asked .
"I . I can't recollect !" Emilia said frusterated .
"It's alright you'll remember ." Nate said putting a hand on Em's shoulder. He then sat on the bed sighing .
"I just feel like a paint brush which had been dipped in black and later in white . My past ..... it just haunts me , just like that paint brush which when used on paper will still show specs of black however much you dip it in white ." He said .
"It's gonna be okay ." Emilia said comforting him .
"It's not ." Nate mumbled .
"It is , I promise !" Emilia said .
"You don't understand ....." Nate began .
"I do , I know how it feels !" Emilia insisted .
"You Don't ! IT IS NOT EVERYDAY YOU FIND OUT YOUR DAD IS .... IS A MURDERER ! WHO KILLED YOUR MOTHER ALL BECAUSE OF MONEY !" Nate shouted . His eyes were burning with fury and his face fierce .
"I never knew my father ." Emilia mumbled .
"Em gosh , I'm sorry." Nate began .
"Save it ! I don't need your pity !" Emilia chocked as she stormed off .
"Woah ! What happened here ?" Edward said walking in with Barbera .
Nate explained everything and they both had one thing to say .
"You messed it up real bad ."
"I know but I never meant it !" Nate protested .
"That's for Em to know ." Barbera said .
Meanwhile with Emilia was walking down the stairs with tears streaming down her face . Her father worked in the army and had been with her till she was five . She was a daddy's girl always her daddy came first . And when that terrible news came to her ...... the memory was crystal clear to her .

It was the 31st of October , a windy morning . The leaf shedding trees looked old and bare . The old couch was comfortable but they had to buy a new one since it had many holes in it .
Emilia was staring at the window counting every falling leaf . Wondering when the mail would come . Mr. Stewart would send her a letter every Friday of every month . Everyone in the neighbourhood would come to hear his hilarious tales in the military camp .
The neighbours were chatting sitting on the chairs , the little children were playing and the teen were talking to each other . Emilia had occupied her usual space on the couch , everyone was waiting eagerly for the mail man Mr. Franklin . He was cleanshaved man with a blue cap and trosers . He wore a striped shirt which said -MAIL .
A pleasant man with a slight sense of humor . Mr. Franklin was loved by all . Mrs. Stewart was smiling with the next door neighbour when Mr. Franklin came . He had a sullen look that day , he handed the letter and left immideatly . Usualy he would stay by to read the letter , it was very uncharechteristic about him .
Emilia had bright smile but her mother had a worried expression. The only difference she could see was the colour difference in the cover of the letter .
"We regret informing you that during our experiment at the army camp , your husband Mr. Christopher Stweart was killed while saving a fellow officer . Our heartfelt condolences .
The Army Headquaters
Quantico."
The letter broke Emilia's heart and Ms. Stewart's social skills. Emilia remained strong for her mother and never cried but this felt like the first time she cried .

Emilia ran out through the door and stopped walked and sat outside facing the the old mill. Tears flowing down her already red cheeks.
"Emma ?" said a worried voice .
"Mum !" Emilia said wiping away her tears and put up a smile . Ms. Stewart smiled and sat down next to Em .
The stars were standing out and the sun was setting a beautiful landscape illuminated in the distance .
"Do you remember when the stars would come out Daddy would tell you how he met me ?" Ms. Stewart said .
Emilia nodded who wouldn't ?
"Well , I'm here to finish the tale." Ms. Stewart said .
Emilia looked at her mother curiosity painted on her face .
"I proposed by your father next to Winston Church . I still remember how nervous your father was when we were getting married. He said his vows with nervousness dripping from his voice. Ah ! And later he laughed at it. On the day of the wedding your father gifted me a necklace as a reminder of our wedding." Ms. Stewart said , " And once you were born we decided to give it to you when your old enough . And I think it's time."
Ms. Stewart then unlocked a pendant that was around her neck ever since her marrige never had she once removed it . She then put it around Emilia's neck .
"There ! Oh ! Look at you ! All grown up and beautiful it seems like only yesterday that I bought you your first teddy !" Ms. Stewart cooed . Em smiled and admired the necklace it had 3 pendants each connected to one another .
One was a black semi circle which was connected to a horse which was connected to a tent with dots around it . It was made of wood and was attached to a silver chain .
"Those pendants are a family heirloom from your father . Bear them well . And remember sweetheart , the ones who love us never really leave us. They are always watching us like the stars though we never see them and when the time is right they appear." Ms. Stewart said before walking off .
Then it suddenly clicked of course ! Why had she not thought of this before , she remembered now .
Emilia raced up the stairs with great speed , if only she ran like that during the school trials for races she would have won a ton of gold medals .
She didn't care whether her feet hurt , she did not care whether she was in no state to face Nate , but she ran .
Emma burst open the door and it hit the wall starling Ed , Bera and Nate .
"What is the matter Em ?"
"Are you okay ?"
"Why were you running ?"
They asked .
"I remember ! I remember where I saw the symbols !"

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