Saved//Green Day

Chapter 20

Billie's POV

I felt a sharp pain in my chest once I woke up. I looked down and saw that I was in a hospital gown. Adie was sat in one of the chairs beside my hospital bed as she cried her heart out silently. I hated to see her in that state and I know she hated when I saw her like that. It made her feel weak.

I instantly shot up, no matter the pain and attempted to get up. Adie quickly made her way over to me and hugged me as tight as humanly possible.

"You're awake!" she exclaimed happily.

"I'm in the middle of my midlife crisis! I'm leaving yet!" I cooed.

"I know my main focus should be you right now but..." Adie trailed off.

"But what?"

"Ch-Chelsea...well...she...I can't exactly describe it without wanting to feel like I failed. And I don't want you to feel like you failed—"

"Adrienne? Love? Just tell me what happened. What did Chelsea do? It's not our fault at all and it's not her fault either," I said as I intertwined our fingers together.

There was a stillness before Adie spoke again.

"Chelsea tried to kill herself," she explained softly and quietly.

My heart dropped to my stomach. I barely knew her, but she, somehow, took a piece of my heart. I loved her like she was my own child and she had already attempted suicide. That had to be my fault in some twisted way. Adie's grip on my hands tightened.

"Billie, I know you think that this is your fault but it's not. You said it yourself...She still loves you. And, y'know she probably wants to see you," Adie swayed back and forth.

"W-why would she wanna see me? I haven't even been there for her at all times. I-I work almost every f*cking day and I'm never there for her...or you. Or Jakob or Joey. I-I'm never there for you guys. I'm such a sh*tty person. How dare I leave you guys to work on some album as if that's more important—I'm sorry, Adrienne."

"Billie, you can't apologize for doing nothing wrong. You care for us in so many ways, and we all love you. At least I know I do...now, I want you to sit back in your bed while I go get Chelsea...and I wasn't lying when I said she wanted to see you," Adie stated firmly before kissing me.

I laid back in my bed and watched as Adie left my room to get Chelsea. Sorrow filled the air, and I couldn't help but feel guilty for not being there. I ruined my family. Adie never had me to depend on and neither did Chelsea, Jakob, or Joey. I failed at being a father and a husband...
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Chelsea walked in without making eye contact with me. I sat at the edge of my bed as she approached me. Her hair was flat and bags were underneath her irritated, hazel eyes. "I'm not mad, Chelsea. You don't have to avoid contact with me," I pouted. She sat down next to me and looked up. Her eyes filled with fear and confusion. "I-I'm sorry..." she whispered to the point where I could barely hear her. A proud smile grew and grew on my face. She had made so much progress and I was so happy for her. I looked at Adrienne, who obviously didn't even know she just spoke. Adrienne looked at me with a confused expression.

"Chels? W-why are you sorry?" I asked, hiding my excitement.

"I'm sorry for being a burden on you and I'm sorry for almost killing you. And I'm sorry that it seemed like I didn't like you and I'm sorry for—" she cried quietly before I cut her off.

"Don't be sorry. Accidents happen all the time, and it wasn't your fault at all. It was the idiot who was driving on the wrong side of the road's fault. And I never thought that you didn't like me," I said while pulling her into a tight hug even though it hurt my ribs.

Adrienne walked over to us and looked at Chelsea with loving eyes. "You talked," Adie sat down on the other side of her. "Yeah," Chelsea replied bluntly. "Now we're guaranteed to win the case," I said while holding Adie's hand behind Chelsea."Adie? Can I talk to Chels alone really quick?" I asked. "Of course. I have to go talk to the boys anyways." We kissed quickly before she left the room.

"Chelsea? I need you to talk to me honestly, okay?" I instructed her. She nodded.

"Why'd you try to kill yourself?"

She sighed and looked at me as tears formed in her eyes.

"Because...I don't have anything left to live for...of course I have you and Adie and Jakob and Joey, but I don't have anything to strive for anymore. And look at all the problems I've caused. I hurt you terribly, I made you pay for therapy, and worst of all, I made you focus on me when you should've been focusing on your family."

There was a hitch in my breath and a lump grew in my throat. "Chels, it hurts me to know that you think you're a nuisance on the family when you're anything but. And you are a part of this family. Sure, it'll take you time to start believing that, but I'll be there when that time comes. That's what a family is and you should know that we all love you wether you like it or not...you stole our hearts. We do love you, Chelsea. And if you ever left us, it would be like someone snapping our hearts in half."

Chelsea began to cry as she lightly wrapped her arms around me. "I...can't say...that I...I can't say that I love everyone..." she said, disappointed in herself.

As much as it pained me to say it, I said, "It's okay...even if you never will..."

A/N: Heyyy beautiful people!!! How r all of you doing?? This chapter, in my opinion, was my favorite. I mean, I'll probably have a new chapter in the future, but as for now, this one is my favorite! I hope u enjoyed this chapter as much as I enjoyed writing it! Please comment and vote if u enjoyed reading this chapter! Ilyasm!!! XOXO