(You're gonna hate me..sorry)
for some reason this didn't post before XD
It was like the whole world was frozen around you. The words left Dan's lips like dynamite, ricocheting into your heart, shrapnel in your throat. You choked a little, the blood from your injuries pouring down your suffocated throat. His eyes widened, he knew he shouldn't have said that, you push him away, feeling your breath caught, and tight.
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HE'S LYING
You went to speak, but no words fell from your lips. Just dry hard air. It swam around your lungs, and your brain, and your heart would not ease its pace as it ran as far away as it could. You try to swallow, but the blood and shock choked you.
"I-I-I...." you stammered, helplessly. Your arms began to itch and the bubble in your chest was so overwhelming you didn't think you could stand another step.
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"(Name)?" Dan whispered, his eyes desperate and pleading. His glorious chocolate maroon eyes. The first time you had seen them, you knew your whole life would never be the same. The first time you met them in person, you knew your whole life would change again. And now, as you stared into his guilt ridden eyes, guilt - over something that made you so happy you didn't believe it. You didn't want to believe it.
You didn't want to believe the facts, the truth. That someone as amazing as Dan could fall in love with someone like you. Someone with scars, and bruises, and a broken heart.
"(Name), calm down." Dan ordered, gripping your shoulders, steadying your wobbling legs. He never thought this would happen when he said, those three little, yet powerful words.
You shook your head, your palms securing their place over his wrists.
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You grinded your teeth together, angry that you had no control over your emotions. First, you were so happy, so overwhelmed and overjoyed, and then you were hurt, and destroyed by the fact the soulless demon residing in your heart forbade any shred of happiness in your life, and now, you were angry. Angry you had lived a life so sour, so controlled. You shook Dan off, and gripped your head, like a maniac.
"SHUT UP!" You screamed, "Shut up. Shut up. SHUT UP!"
You were breathless, you were scared, you were upset and you were furious. You wanted your life back, you wanted the life you had before the endless nights, and the broken skin. You wanted the days you were confident in your body and you wanted the days back where you could walk the halls with your head held high. You wanted those days back, before Daniel James Howell.
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Hopeless (Dan Howell X Reader)
Fanfic"I'm sorry," he began, stepping forward "I couldn't say this over the phone. I couldn't. I just... I was so happy!" Your face fell, you were sitting here, dreading everything you had ever done, and he was happy. "When you told me, my heart stopped...
