It had been a couple hours after Kiwi's plane had left the terminal and you were still stuck in traffic, your fingers drumming against the wheel, Dan's eyes plaguing your mind. You had called Phil telling him Kiwi was on her way safely, and he tried to get you to even utter a single word to Dan but he didn't even perk at the idea.
Sucking in a deep breath, bored from the grid lock you click on Dan's contact, breathing evenly, you placed the phone to your ear.
After five rings you were ready to give up and talk to him face to face, but a quick click and heavy breathing stopped you.
"(Name)?" he whispered, his voice shaky and weak.
"D-Dan!" you stuttered, a little uneased, he sighed on the other end and you frowned.
"I thought something happened..." you heart squeezed, he was worried about you, after everything you did to him he was worried about you, it brought a tear to your shaky (Eye Colour) eyes, and your face contorted as you tried not to cry.
"Something has happened..." you choked, the courage in you bubbling up and up.
"What...?" Dan whispered, fear lacing his voice like a ribbon.
"I did something stupid, I said stupid hurtful things to the man I love, and I didn't stop him from walking away. I avoided him, I broke him and I lost him. I wanted for days to see his face and kiss him and hug him and just to make him mine. But I told him the truth in the utterly wrong moment, and I can't apologise enough for it. I don't know what to do, I'm going out of mind just thinking about his voice. My heart hurts and my stomach jumps when I realised what I did. I did something so wrong, and I told him something that wasn't true. It wasn't because of him, it wasn't over him, he saved me, loved me, and did all the good things when I did everything bad.
It was the people that didn't love, but he did. And I really really really hope he still does. Because I love him to the moon and back and back again. And I don't know what to do...what do I do Dan?!" you took and trembling breath, car horns screaming at you from behind, the traffic moving on just like the steady tears down your face. You had finally let everything off your chest, and you had finally told him you love him.
And Dan was silent for a moment just shocked heavy breaths bouncing into your pink tainted ears.
"you apologise to him. Just two words." They were so soft that you almost didn't hear them, and it made you let out a little gasp. Before you practically wailed
"I'm sorry Dan!"
He chuckled lightly, "that's three words..." he whispered and a cheesy grin broke out on your face as you pulled your car to the side of the road, to stop the road rage boiling up behind you.
"no, this is the three words... I love you." And then, the line went dead, and you froze. The red blinky light of Dan's name burning your eyes. A slow vibration, Dan's name, and the text.
I'm sorry...
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Hopeless (Dan Howell X Reader)
Hayran Kurgu"I'm sorry," he began, stepping forward "I couldn't say this over the phone. I couldn't. I just... I was so happy!" Your face fell, you were sitting here, dreading everything you had ever done, and he was happy. "When you told me, my heart stopped...
