You again |mpreg|

5

I opened my eyes and immediately I felt like shit. Everything hurt, my stomach, my legs, I wanted to just close my eyes and dissapear to somewhere else. But eventually, I opened my eyes and I was shocked.

Where was I? The blankets that covered me were a deep red color, and looking up I saw how the ceiling was bedazzled. The walls were a dark grey color and complimented the carpet flooring.
Getting up from the covers, I almost stumbled over my own feet and my vision was a bit blurred.

I stumbled my way out of the sheets, until someone caught my arm, "woah there, buddy. You should lay back down." It was Jenna's voice that spoke, and that confused me even more.

Although I did sit down on the covers, and then asked, "what happened....why am I at a hotel, and don't you live at your Ex's moms house?"

Jenna chuckled, as she took a seat beside me and pulled out a vape, "you basically got drunk, I mean I found you like, fast asleep on the floor of the men's bathrooms because when the club was closing my boss Alexa was all like 'Jenna, check the bathrooms!' And I'm like 'okay fine, but only cause we had sex the other night-"

"You had sex with your BOSS?" I asked, Jenna was full of surprises, and I snatched her vape away, "and Jenna you have cancer, you're like killing yourself-"

She snatched the vape away from me and rolled her eyes, "I'm already dying, and vapes don't have that much nicotine in them, I can literally quit whenever I want." She started, "I'm getting off topic, but long story short...when I found you in the men's restroom and my boss Alexa rented me out this apartment; so it's not a hotel. But yeah, thats basically what happened." She finished. I exhaled, taking everything in. I thought I had everything planned out, everything was going so well- how'd I manage to fuck up this early? I started to pant slowly and the walls looked like they were starting to close in on me. I had to get out of here.

I quickly got up from the bed without question and opened the doors to the balcony. I heard Jenna call after me but I didn't pay any attention. I got on top of the ledge and looked at everything beneath me. I saw the speeding transportations and the large buildings and how high up I was. I wanted to jump, nothing seemed right, my life had no filter and Vic hated me. I remember what happened last night, all the memories were beginning to flood in and I couldn't help but to let out a sob. My mom was right. Maybe I should just go back to Michigan-

"Kellin!" I heard Jenna scream, "please stop, you're scaring me! What are you doing-"

Another tear went down my cheek, "nothing matters anymore, Jenna. Nobody cares about me.." My voice was dead and I felt nothing.

Jenna then walked towards me, "Kellin, you can't do his to yourself. Everyone has a purpose in life, and I may be a stripper with Cancer but you're a model with crippling anxiety, and you're important, Kellin. I haven't known you for long but what I've learned is that you affect other people in a positive way and you gotta embrace that," Jenna held my hand, my feet were at the edge of the balcony, and I was about to jump, but I stepped off. The anxiety left, and the aftermath of my panic attack was horrible.

I gazed blankly at the floor, "thank you, Jenna..." I trailed off, "but it hurts so much, it feels like my life is crashing down at the moment and I- I just don't know what to do." My hands were shaking and my voice shook.

Jenna hugged me and gave me a pat on the back, I studied the blue of her eyes. They were a light blue, "it gets better, trust me. Just don't do that again, okay? It was, it was terrifying, you know? You were like this different person. Yo, what's up with that?"

I chuckled, even though nothing was funny, "it was a panic attack," I said gently, "I get them all the time. I used to have depression a long time ago, back in high school. When that slowly went away, the attacks started coming. I mean it was hard because I literally had every reason to be happy but with depression it's like this huge demon that's constantly eating away at you until you eventually give in." I finished. The words had been spilling from my mouth without order and Jenna just held my hand the entire time.