You again |mpreg|

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A/N: lolol Vic's decision-making process is trash

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My body shook. I felt absolutely everything, and nothing, all at once. There were too many emotions to describe the level of pain and sadness I was feeling as I walked down the streets of New York, into a cab, and then eventually back to Jenna's apartment. My lips were dry and all that I could think about was him. Victor Vincent Fuentes. His words had damaged me and I didn't want to pick up the pieces, I felt broken, and I was severely sad. He promised to me that he would never hurt me, he promised to me that he wouldn't just leave me out of the blue like that; he promised. It just all felt so surreal to me, his words...they didn't belong to him, and it wasn't something that I'd ever dreamed of him saying to me. But I exhaled, as I took everything in. I stood in front of Jenna's door and knocked, tears just falling down my face, and at this rate I didn't even care anymore.

Moments later, a dark-haired, brown-eyed girl answered the door, it was Tay. Tay was Jenna's girlfriend, she'd broken up with Alexa a while back because Alexa lost interest in her and started dating another stripper, Lynn. It was a sad story, but Jenna didn't seem bothered by it, I guess. But long story short, Alexa let Jenna keep the condo so she wouldn't be living with her Ex's mom. I wiped my face slightly, as I stepped inside. Tay gave me a confusing look , "Kellin...Jenna went out to get something but, are you okay?" she asked, "you don't look right."

I sank unto the couch, and gazed into the red wall. I was thinking about everything, but then again I was thinking about nothing, "he broke up with me." I spoke, my voice was cracking and then my eyes burned, I didn't want to cry, I really didn't. Tay then came rushing over to me and gave me a solemn look, all the while hugging me. And I needed it, too, it felt nice to be held and secure when you were so broken and insecure.

"Did he tell you why?" she asked, Tay knew about Vic from magazines and plus Jenna's told her about him and how we were together.

I pulled away from her, as I tucked a strand of my hair beneath my ear, taking my coat off and setting it on the dark wooden table, "no," I said as I sniffed, "it was all a blur. And it happened so quick...he told me how he didn't love me anymore, and how he didn't want me. Alexa...I feel so dumb, you know? How could I have been so oblivious, it's like I was being brainwashed into thinking he was the one, only to get my heart broken again. I've only ever had one other boyfriend in my life and that was Josh, from High school and that was a mess...but this? I feel so low, he made me feel like...like...shit. But you know the funny thing?"

Tay rubbed my shoulder and sighed, "what?"

"I would probably still take him back, right now if he'd call and ask." I told her.

Tay shook her head, "I was there for Jenna when she found out that Alexa didn't want her anymore," she spoke, "it broke my heart to know that someone could say such hurtful words to another person. When Jenna cried...it's like I felt her pain and I knew exactly what was going on. She felt low, just how you're feeling right now, and I just want to let you know that it's okay to have those feelings."

I blinked twice, and sat up a bit straighter, "what do you mean?"

She pondered for a mere second, before returning her thought, "it's called recovery. We all hang onto the past somehow, Kellin...it's what makes us human. But you can't let the past destroy your future...so what Victor Fuentes, popular male model doesn't want you? There are plenty of boat in the fucking sea, trust me. He's not that great, and if he can't see your magnificence, then you don't deserve him, it shouldn't be the other way around."

I shrugged, "I want to believe you, but something was just so off about Vic. He was so emotionless and pained, it's like he was being forced to say those things to me, maybe it was a prank..."

She rolled her eyes, and chuckled, "you're kidding, right? A prank?"

I smiled slightly, "I just- when I get mad, I get mad. I just say whatever's on my mind and I can be intimidating, he ticked me off. I didn't think he'd tell me he hates me, though."

Just then, the door opened and it revealed Jenna. She had grocery bags in her hands and I saw that she was struggling, Tay then jumped up, "I should go help Jenna," she laughed, "but we all can talk after if you want."

I nodded, "okay."

When Tay left, I pulled my knees up to my chest. This couldn't be right, something else was happeing to him, just those words...they got to me. Am I really that worthless to him? Am I really that undesirable? He said flat-out that he didn't want me and that he didn't love me anymore and that he hated me and that I annoyed him. The anger suddenly came back and I grabbed a pillow, crying into it quietly. I don't know what I did wrong, and I hated connecting the dots, it made my head hurt. In just that moment when I pulled away form the pillow, my phone rang.

It was Vic.

I bit my lip so hard that i'm sure I almost drew blood.

At first I rejected his call.

But then he called again shortly after.

I scoffed, rolling my eyes, as I declined again.

But it rang a third time.

With shaky breath, I pressed the answer button and put my phone up to my ear, "hi," I spoke, my voice was broken, and I knew that my heart was going to detonate if I heard his's.

"Kellin? I can't explain but you need to leave wherever you are and get on a plane." Vic said directly to me.