Lost~Ashton Iwrin Fanfic

Losing Innocence

::Rainy::
I woke up with the sun shining in my eyes. I squinted adjusting to the painfully bright light. I got up scared to look in the mirror.
But me being me...I looked anyway.


My hair was spitting in all different directions. My eyes were blood shot and black bags made me look high. My lips were swollen and cut, their usual pink, a bright red due to the blood coming through. a large cut crossed my forehead, And my mascara looked like it melted down my dry, red cheeks.
That was only my face though. I couldn't bare to look at myself anymore. Lifting my fist with all the strength I had in me I slammed it into the Mirror. Glass shattered around my bare body. I dropped to the ground as a fresh round of tears fell freely. Loud sobs escaped my dry mouth as I held tightly to the cut hand.
"Rainy?! Oh My God! What the fuck happened to you?!" I heard Jenny my roommate come in screaming. She was asleep when I crawled in last night, and I was hoping she wouldn't have to see me .like this. "You know what never mind we have to get you to the hospital. Come on." Her voice was less panicked as she hurried me into a standing position and gave me a pair of red leggings and a zip-up hoodie with 'Payne' written on the back. I Slowly pulled it on with her help and she carried me somehow to the door.
"Jenny. I can take care I myself." My voice was weak and hoarse.
"Obviously Not rainy. Now lets go before I lose my temper and you know what it's like for me to lose my temper."
"Their going to ask what happened to me Jenny." I Felt warm tears begin to fall...again.
"Rainy? What DID happen to you?" She held my arms by my side and looked deep into my eyes. "You never cry..."
As if on key, I dropped to the ground and cried my eyes out. Memories came flooding back to me as I buried my face in the palms of my hands.

FlashBack: (Warning: Unwanted Sexual Content! If your under the age of 13 just skip this part)
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"Rainy....Rainy...awe baby your so beautiful when you wake up." Xavier my boyfriend stood over me holding onto a key. I was about to sit up when something pulled me back down. I looked up at my hands and realized they had been handcuffed to the bed. Same with my feet. A wave of terror came over me.
"X-Xavier?" He threw his head back laughing.
"Your so scared! You should see your face!"
A cold chill ran over my whole body and I realized I was completely exposed to him. We have never done it before and I still wasn't ready but I have a feeling that's what was getting ready to change. "Xavier. Don't do this please. Im not ready." I begged. I felt my eyes get filled with tears.
"Beautiful Rainy. That's the problem. You have to be ready... well I guess you don't HAVE to but your going to be." I seen him smirk and he crawled on top of me. I realized he was naked as well.
"XAVIER PLEASE NO!" I screamed the tears falling hard and my sobs loud. Before I knew though...it was taken from me. The one thing I thought I had a choice of in life was taken away from me. That's when I quit. I quit struggling. I quit fighting him. I just laid there motionless. Scared. Dirty.
When he finished I didn't look at him I just stared at the ceiling and cried. Just warm tears falling down my cheeks. My mouth stayed shut and tight.
"That's was good Baby. To bad you couldn't have enjoyed it." He undone my handcuffs and left the room. The door being shut brought me back to reality. I finally realized where I was. His room. Which means there's a window over... there. I seen the large balcony window in the far corner. I went to get up but I was sore and just fell right back down. I rolled off the bed as quiet as I could. Slowly I crawled to the door in hoped of it being unlocked.
It Wasn't. Shit. I had to find his key.
Dresser! He kept everything there! The problem was how was I going to get to it if I was to sore to stand? I began crawling to it slowly trying not to let the floor make a noise.
...Creak...
Shit...No No No!
"RAINY?!" I heard him yell. I tried standing up through the pain and ran to the balcony door. I crashed through the thick glass just as he was coming in the door. It seemed to be slow motion as I fell the 2 stories from his balcony. I landed hard on his Pool deck. My head was bleeding but I had to keep going. Luckily the pain I was feeling down drowned out the previous pain but it didn't matter. I ran down the steps and down his driveway. My heart was pounding in my chest and I felt my sweat beginning to gather on my body. I heard his black SUV start up and I felt Fear fuel me and my blood pulsed faster in my veins. I use every part of my body to gain speed and ram straight into the woods right by his home. He wouldn't risk his car to catch me but I couldn't stop running till I reached the other side of the trees. There was a older road there that no one ever took. Ill be able to walk home from there. Which is exactly what I did. I covered my body the best I could with my hands and walked slowly down the cracked cement back to the house I shared with my roommate.


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Okay Guys Thank You SO MUCH for reading. I do plan on posting short chapters but I update more often also.
I'm going to try to create a soundtrack for this story using 8-Tracks but as of right now I still need to figure it out...
Thanks for reading again:)