The Years Disappeared

It's Not the First Time

I stiffened as I felt him kiss my neck, his arms wrapping around my waist. "Hey."
"Hmm." I grunted, nudging him off me and checking on the kids, who were playing within my sight in the little sand pit, Sara in her playpen. "Mommy! Daddy! Come play!" Joe begged, waving his teeny plastic spade at us, Bella and Leia agreeing with him. We sat down just outside of the pit, helping them build a castle and moat, though I refused to look him in the eye. Bella began to tire of her younger siblings, running over to the swing, as I returned inside to feed Sara. Having four children under the age of ten was a real handful sometimes, but I regretted nothing, knowing this was what I was meant for. Just as I finished feeding her from my breast, not yet having covered myself, Lindsey strolled in. "Nice," he winked at me, coming over. I scowled, pulling my straps back up and taking Sara upstairs for her nap. "Hey, what's wrong babe?" He called after me.
"Watch the kids Lindsey!"
"Oh, they're just in the lounge, Bella can mind Leia and Joe for a few minutes," he bounded up the stairs, following me as I placed Sara in her cot, obstructing the doorway as I tried to exit to room.
"You were amazing this morning, so fucking sexy."
"Really?"
"Like you need to ask?" He said, shifting his legs, taking my hand and rubbing it up and down his hardening crotch.
"No...I..."
He hoisted my body against the wall as he felt me through my panties.
"Fuck...No!" I pushed him away, his face appearing sad.
"Did I hurt you?"
"When you fucked another woman- the same woman- again? Yes!" I swallowed my emotion, rushing back downstairs, hearing a disagreement.
"Joe pushed her!" Bella pointed, Leia clutching her knee and sobbing on the carpet.
"Joseph?" I asked firmly, taking Leia into my arms as I kneeled, kissing her head.
"I'm sorry mommy! But she stoled my Benny Bear!" He clasped the stuffed dog- which he had long insisted was a bear- to his chest.
"You know that's not an excuse. Please say sorry to your sister and give her a hug," I demanded, and he obeyed.
"Now Leia, you apologise and hug your big brother." Leia, younger than Joe by a year, too obeyed and I hugged them both on my lap, making them promise not to misbehave in a such a way again. Lindsey went back outside with Bella who wished to read to him from the swing, as I made lunch while Joe and Leia returned to the sandpit visible from the French doors in the kitchen. Lindsey only managed to corner me when Bella supervised her younger siblings' hand washing before their food.
"Baby you're wrong, so wrong," he said reaching for me.
"I found the fucking note to you Lindsey, fuck you, fuck you."
"Sssh, ssh the children."
"Yes Lindsey, the children you made with me, little did I know you were making them with her too! And you still are!"
"She was never pregnant, don't say that, and I haven't touched her since those days I swear on the lives of the children we have Steph."
"Then wh-" the return of Bella, Leia, and Joe cut off my interrogation.