StarLit / Yaoi

StarLit / Chapter 18

A/N: Sorry for the late update. This chapter is mature (it also gets a little awkward too, by the way).

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I don't know what could be more awkward than this. Ayase wasn't joking, I guess, when she told me to sleep in Yuki's room. She literally grabbed my things and threw them into his room without saying a single word. She didn't even ask Yuki if he was fine with it. And sleeping just a few feet from someone I was sexually attracted to wasn't necessarily a good thing. Both of us seemed to find it kind of awkward.

"S-so, um, I'll sleep over here on the futon" I managed to say. I threw my things into the farthest corner of his room and laid down.

Yuki stood over by the end awkwardly. "I have to change" he explained. 

I glanced over at him, my face burning slightly. "O-okay, I'll just turn this way" 

I kept my eyes fixated on the corner of the room while I heard him changing. Who knew this would be so damn weird? I mean, I know I said this before, but neither of us had tried to do anything with each other since we established we were dating. In a way, it had me nervous that he thought of us as a couple at all. Or even romantically involved. 

"So... is this going to be a regular thing?" He suddenly asked. 

I didn't turn to look his way, instead, I shrugged facing the wall. "Probably. Ayase usually gets her way" 

"Oh..." I could hear him laying back down in bed. "I only ask because this is slightly awkward"

Slightly? That would be an understatement. This was really awkward, more than just a bit, but very awkward. I'd never even made it this far with past girlfriends. I mean, I also wasn't living with them either. "It's a bit awkward" I wanted to ask him the question that had been nagging at me for the longest time, but I didn't know how to phrase it, especially since, if I struck out with him, I had nowhere to go but back to my room with a snoring foreigner. 

"Misato" I nearly choked when he said that. My first name! Which, isn't exactly that incredible, but I'd been calling him by his first name for forever now. 

"Yeah?" I asked with a smile. Shortly after that my smile faded away. 

"We're dating right?" 

"Yeah?" 

"Well, I was wondering, because we never do anything" 

I sat up real quick and faced him. "Y-you mean like a d-date, right?" Shit. I'm really no good at this kind of thing. 

He shook his head. "I meant more like... sex" 

Holy shit on toast! When the hell did he get so bold? My face burned as I put my head down. "Y-yeah... we've never tried" 

"I'm not a virgin... if that's what you were worried about" 

"N-no" Suddenly the thought of his uncle came back to my mind and I got really pissed, completely abandoning my worriness. "Wait... you didn't lose your virginity to... him... did you?" 

He looked at me for a while, then shook his head. "No" He was speaking so quietly I could barely hear him. "I was dating someone else then so we had sex long before my uncle and me" That didn't help much, it just got my blood boiling more. He looked at me sheepishly. "Are you a virgin?" 

I shook my head almost immediately. "No" There's no way in hell I could be. I've basically done everything there is to do with sex, except for the extreme stuff and having sex with another guy. Otherwise, I've had sex at least twenty times.