Recoil (On Hold)

Chapter 13

**Recap**

“Derek if you came out here to just ignore me some more, then go back inside. “I said angrily not looking in his direction.

“No B, I came out to talk.” A very familiar deep voice said and placed their hand on mine.

It couldn't be! Could it? I sat for a few moments in confusion praying this wasn't a dream. I took a deep breath and let it out slowly, tears wanting to escape from my eyes.

"Mark?" I asked with a shaky voice....

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He squeezed my hand tighter and let out a sigh. I still couldn't look at him. I didn't want this dream to end.

“B... I... I don't even know where to start.” He said obviously lost for words.

My heart raced again at the sound of his voice. I couldn't believe it was him! I don't even know how he found me. This has to be a dream. This is too random for him to be here. I can't stand this. It's one of the most vivid dreams I have ever had. I don't even remember falling asleep.

“How... How did you find me?” I asked, still not believing he was here.

He chuckled. “Harvey told me. I got back to the U.S about ten hours ago and went straight to your house. Harvey and Cole were there, I think they were making jams? I don't know, Harvey is off his rocker and Cole isn't too far behind.”

I shook my head. I don't know if I should trust those two alone in my house.

“Yeah he asked me where my mason jars were. I honestly thought he was being sexual.” I said smiling and looking back up at the stars. We sat in silence really not knowing what to say and splashing our feet in the water. My hand was burning under his. His touch was so comforting. I knew it was a dream but it felt so real. Just like all the others. I still couldn't look at him and I felt like I was going to throw up because of all the butterflies in my stomach.

“B... Please look at me. I've been staring at you for twenty minutes and you can't even look my way.” He said sadness lingering in his voice.

“Mark...” I sighed. “I'm too scared to look at you. I've dreamed of seeing you so many times, only to wake up all alone. Its heart breaking and I can't look at you knowing this is all a dream. I can't handle it.” I let the tears fall from my eyes. I haven't even looked at him and my heart was already breaking, knowing I would wake up.

I felt his hand against my cheek and I leaned into it. He turned my head to face him. I knew it would only be a matter of seconds before I would look at him and wake up.

“Alizabeth Reece look at me right now.” He said sternly. I knew I was in trouble because he never uses my full name. I sighed and opened my eyes. I had to blink a couple of times so my eyes could focus, but as soon as they did sure enough, there was Mark Kraws and all his glory.

His dark green eyes were piercing into mine. I noticed his face had a hard edge to it, just like Harv's did. He had dark circles under his eyes as though he hadn't slept in who knows how long. He also had some stubble along his cheeks, more of a five day shadow instead of a five o'clock. Even though he looked a bit older then I last saw him he was still the same Mark that left me behind all those years ago.

I was frozen staring at his features, until I heard some shouting in the distance.

“Liz! Liz! Where are you?!” I heard Derek shout from the back door.

“Shit! I can't let him see you!” I quickly got up and took off my shirt and shorts leaving me only in my bra and boy shorts. Mark just stared at me with wide eyes.