The girl i really am(wattys2016)

take two,action!

Nessa's POV

So much for trying to see the good in others. Honestly, I'm surprised at North's attitude. I never saw her as the kind of person she turned out to be...but I guess we don't always see it coming in life.

After the whole North+Kyle scene, North stayed up in her room. Kyle left and the rest of us went to the rehearsal room.

Aunt Eva and the rest of the grown ups explained the whole movie to us. Our director was Tom Haggins, a very popular director. Apparently we were acting in a family drama called "twins in jeans". We auditioned for parts. It was funny how Skye was screaming and begging to have the lead role but I'm not in the right place to complain. I know its important for her to be the best, to prove to her parents that she isn't worthless.

To be honest, I wouldn't mind having the lead role. It would be a dream come true....who knows? I might actually get to meet Andy Biersack!!!.... He is baeee!... Okay enought fangirling.

After auditioning, Tom read out the roles. Skye sat by me. She flashed me a smile and I returned it.
"Playing as Sara for the lead role is..."

I saw Skye crossing her fingers for luck...

"Janessa Burke. That role is perfect for you."

What? Me? I looked at Skye. She looked angry. Its not like I planned to be the lead...but didn't Tom say "twins in jeans"? Meaning....twins, two leads. I touched Skye's shoulder for her attention to tell her not to worry but she shook me off and went to sit by Jace who was more than happy to move for her. A tear was falling from her eyes.

"And to play Sam for the other lead role is Skye. You're an awesome actress."

I saw a smile of relief on her face. When her eyes met mine, she shot me a deadly glare.

"And you should make arrangements with your publicists on your public image. We have to get the word out about your show. Janessa, you might need to stop schooling. We can arrange a tutor for you so it doesn't affect your career. I need you all to come to the Grammy's for a première next weekend. Its a red carpet event so you're expected to get formally dressed. Blah blah you know the drill."

We all chuckled.

I was to stop school? Call me crazy but I sometimes enjoy school. I can't imagine myself with a tutor alone...with no cafeterias or laboratories or student body or cheer squad.....pretty weird if you ask me.
I raised my hands.
"Tom? Is it really necessary for me to stop school?"

"Absolutely necessary. In fact, you need a full make over. You might need to adopt a new identity. So come up with your career name and look with your make up team. After the premiere, we're starting work. Kapish?(okay?)"

"Yes sir".

I went up to my room after the meeting. This is so good. I got a lead role. About my makeover, I'm thinking hazel eyes and blonde hair...
I need a new name....a career name.
Mirabelle. My middle name.... Mirabelle Burke.. Mira Burke... Well, that should do. I need to rant to someone about this. Krysta....I tried her number five times, it went straight to voicemail.

"Hey there, this is Krysta. If you're hearing this,then I didn't pick up. It might be because I don't like you or I'm hanging with my Bestest friend, Janessa......Nessa, talk to the stalker...*muffled sound*.... Okay, stalker,you have till three to leave my bestie alone or else I will slice you in three and feed you to the dogs then make your bones into powder and wear for your funeral. One, two... Okay, nessa its enough... Leave your message at the beep.... *beeeep"

She didn't change the voicemail we both made. That has to count for  something...
I called the only other number I knew would pick up. Tori. She picked up after the third ring.
"Hey tori"

"Can you call tomorrow, she's a bit drunk right now"

That voice. But what would she be doing with tori.
"Krysta?"

"Nessa?"

"Please don't hang up"

"*sigh... Okay."

"I'll meet you at the park in 10?"

"Yeah sure".

I hung up and got a $50 bill. I had to make a quick stop at Walmart.

So there's Krysta...looking extra pretty. Like she just came from a party
She doesn't look wasted though. I sat near her on the bench. I broke the uncomfortable silence.
"So...tori huh?"

"I had no one to go to"

"Really? You didn't even tell me and I'm supposed to be your best friend"

"It's hard okay?......*sniff ....  I can't believe I was stupid enough to believe that jerk of your brother. I always end up getting hurt, its not a nice feeling"

"Its okay. But I think you need to listen to Kyle. He didn't do it. It was.."

"North? Don't tell me you're buying that crap too?..there isn't even a north around here"

"Actually....there is ...and I was there"

"Who is she?"

"I've not been exactly truthful to you. It all started when..."

*sigh... So glad its all over. Yesterday, Krysta and I patched things up. She finally saw that it wasn't kyles fault although she didn't look too convincing. I cheered her up by allowing her follow for the premiere of the show. I really can't wait for this weekend.
Right now, Krysta and I are dress shopping. Apparently we have to wear 'eye catching statement pieces' according to my stylist. So we had to go shopping in the huge stores. We bought a pink long dress for me. It was soo beautiful. I knew it was THE dress the moment I saw it. I quickly picked it up and paid for it. Krysta got a high-low teal dress with the front reaching above her knees and the back flowing. We bought a lot of other things.
Then I dropped her off in her house. I quickly drove to the whitehouse to keep my dress in my room. I kept it in my closet and got on the phone with my mom to at least keep her updated.
After, I went downstairs to Skye's room. I knocked, she opened the door
"What else do you want from me, nessa? Just leave me alone"

OK what was that about?.... Skye has been acting all weird since the auditions. Its freaking me out. Maybe its just a phase, maybe if I give her time, she'll get over it.
I got home quickly. Kyle had been in his room ever since the north incident. He comes out just to get food. It worries me to think that I might have been wrong after all. Just because he started out as a player doesn't make him one for life, right? People change and what I'm seeing is my brother changing. Right now my greatest wish is to get he and Krysta back together. If only there was an easier way..... I jumped on my bed ,closed my eyes and opened it to a world in my head......

Hola! Como estas?...... Ha, I only took Spanish for like a day or two... That's about all I know...
Any who, the dress up there is what Nessa picked for the premiere. I'll post krystas own soon,ig.
Okay.....

You may go about your normal lives now....

XX
'Nessa( yes, my name is Janessa, nope the story isn't exactly about me...some parts are though).

OK bye.