The girl i really am(wattys2016)

such sweet sorrow

So up there is Mila Kunis. She plays Janessa before the transformation. If that's not who you imagined her as,feel free to imagine her as whoever. :) Okay, so one teeny weeny thing before the story continues, DO NOT SCROLL WITHOUT READING!!!!

Now that that's settled, how do you love my new cover? It was made by @joshriv so a big thanks to you,buddy! Tell me if you want the old one back or nah.
And thanks so much for 1.06k reads!!! This book still has like a gazillion chapters up ahead so it wouldn't be ending anytime soon,also,ill try to update more often. I read my last chapter and i saw the many many mistakes, even as i'm typing now...cut me some slack, i am too lazy rn, i promise to edit later though... :). Check out "cold heart" by @thatimperfectqueen you'll love it!

Alright,this has been a looooong author's note,lets go back to the story.

"What?!"

So i just told krysta that i was leaving to LA to start my acting career. She started crying and begging me to pull out and cancel my contract. And if you thought Kyle made her feel better, then darling, you should book an appointment with a doctor. Kyle chose this exact moment to remind her that he would be leaving for college the same day i leave for LA.

Eventually, she ran out of tears. She told me she would miss me. I promised to keep in touch with her because i know that there is no one in the world like Krysta.

She spent the whole day with me. We were to leave in two days. She didn't even go to school. We went shopping and to the game center. It was so much fun that i even considered forfeiting the acting biz. Krysta was worth it. Where else would i find someone like her? Not Hollywood where everyone plasters a smile on their faces and you just never know who's fake... because if you want to survive in this hell called "earth", you need to understand that you cant just climb on a flying carpet and sing "a whole new world" because this life isn't Disney where everything ends with the clichéd "happily ever after" crap. Life is a hungry wolf ready to eat you alive if you're not-

"Earth to Nessa!!"

"Huh?"

"You blanked out again. When do i get to see you again?"

"On tv, on the radio, oh and you're invited for all my red carpet events"

"Really? Omg that's amazing"

"Krysta don't make it sound like i'm moving from your life forever,cause i'm not. Ill talk to you everyday i promise. You know what, ill even go to school tomorrow so we have our last day together. You'll still be my best friend "

She hugged me and we stayed that way for a long time until she pulled away. Then she smiled and got up. She straightened her dress and wiped her eyes. Then she grabbed her bags from the mall. Was she...leaving me?

"and where do you think you're going? i'm leaving in two days, you're obligated to stay here till i leave"

"yeah i am, but you're not the only one leaving me. i have a boyfriend leaving in two days also. so bye. see you at school"

i waved her off. when she left, i went to start packing.

I crammed all the things i bought from the mall into my big mint green box. Then i started packing my evening dresses and my shoes,except the ones i would wear till i leave. After some time, i needed a break. I put on my shoes and got my phone, locked the door and went to the school. I saw Nathan, Evan, Shawn and other football players on the field practicing. Nathan was friends with Blake,the school's quarterback who so happened to be a senior. Although Nathan was going to be just a sophomore next year, the coach already made up his mind to make him quarterback next year. Watching him play, you would totally understand coach's decision. I sat in the bleachers and got lost in thought.

Who would have thought all this would happen to me? If you told me a year ago that I'll be an actress in hollywood, i would look at you the way i look at Trump.

A part of me just wants to stay back in this pathetic school. Because entering Hollywood will be losing my privacy. Aunt Eva has told me countless stories. How i will have to wear sunglasses to protect me from the deadly flashes from the paparazzi. Although i wont mind wearing sunglasses...i like the whole James Bond vibe. But honestly, i like having me-time.

But if all goes well, ill be rich and popular, which is pretty awesome. You know what, no more!! I'm in this to the end.

"Janessa! Could you pass the ball?"

Huh? What ball? I snapped out of my thoughts. I saw someone running this way. Shawn. I glared at him. He asked again to give the ball which i saw was near my legs. I threw it harshly at him. It hit him in the face. Woah. I didn't know the power of my own throw. Glaring Nessa disappeared and Concerned Nessa appeared. I ran down to him. The football players came too. One of them grabbed the ball.

"You guys go on, i'll take him to the nurse"

After minutes of convincing them to let me take him, they went back to the field.

Apparently, he wasn't too hurt. He stood up and i guided him till we reached the nurse's office where he sat on a bed. After lying down for a few minutes, the nurse looked at his face. A bruise was starting to form. On the bright side, he had something to remind him of me when i leave in two days.

She treated it mildly with the first aid box. He cringed and winced at the pain. But ill admit, he's cute. Come to think of it, i never actually noticed Shawn. He has amazing eyes. Almost like Krysta's.

"All done. There's a small bruise forming but no worries, it would be gone in another week or two, tops. Here's midol for the headache. You can rest for a bit,maybe skip the next period. Other than that,you're good to go"

She gave a bright smile. I saw Shawn brighten up when she said he could skip the next period. I chuckled lightly. The nurse looked at me with a tight smile that was clearly faked.
"And shouldn't you be going to your next period?"

I mirrored her smile.
"No miss, i actually have a free period"

She left. I turned to Shawn
"Look i am really sorry for your face. But on the bright side, you get to skip last period."

He smiled.
I smiled.
Then he frowned.

"Its OK. But i have one question"

Should i? I almost killed him with my master throw. He deserves to ask whatever. Okay.
"Ask away"

He turned slightly to face me and rubbed his head a bit from the pain. I gave him a glass of water and the midol tablets which he took.

"Why do you hate me so bad?"