Treegan- loving my best friend

Chapter 31:

Troian's POV:

Keegan pulls his shirt off and then removes his jeans before getting in bed. "I-I can't." I say anxiously. "I'm going to get a shower." I say before walking to the bathroom. I pull off all my clothes and run the hot water. When I step in, I close the curtain and immediately start crying. That's when the curtain slightly opened. "Can I join?" He asks and I nod. A few seconds later he gets in with me, pulls me in for a hug, and I kiss his shoulder. I quietly cry on his shoulder as he rubs my back.

"This is killing me." I whisper holding onto him by his back tighter. "It'll be okay, I promise." He tells me and I nod slowly. "Maybe." I shrug before more tears continuously fall. "I'm sorry, I-I can't help it." I whisper. "It's fine, this won't ever be forgotten. She won't be forgotten. She was only a few days old but this will impact us, Troian." He tells me and kisses me. A tear falls down his beautiful face and I wipe it with my thumb. "Thank you for never leaving me and staying with me through all of this." I say giving a weak smile.

"I couldn't ask for somebody better than you." I say kissing him back. "I love you, Troian." He says as another tear falls down his face. "Besides, who else would agree to get in the shower with you at 4:10 AM?" He chuckles a little and I do too. "I didn't need to get one, I just figured the hot water would calm me." I admit. "Did it work?" He asks and I nod. "Yeah, and you did too." I smile kissing his cheek. "Want to get out and lie down?" He asks and I nod turning the water off.

We both dry off and instead of getting dressed, we just lay in bed together, with our bodies touching. Eventually tiredness takes over me and I fall asleep with my arm thrown over Keegan's chest and my leg over his hip.

10:00 AM

I slowly open my eyes and feel around the bed, Keegan isn't there. I pull the blankets over myself and then I remember our friends are downstairs. Just as I was about to get dressed I heard the shower water start to run. I slowly walk in and peek in to see Keegan standing under the hot water. "Good morning." I say startling him because he jumps. "Sorry." I giggle stepping in with him. "It's fine. I was thinking about you." He smiles kissing me.

"Oh, really?" I ask curiously. "Can we talk about this after? I'm kind of showering." He tells me. "You interrupted mine yesterday." I smirk and put my hands on his chest. "So I have every right to do this." I smile before pushing him up against the wall and kissing him. At first he's taken by surprise, but quickly kisses me back. His hands leave my face and run down to hold me by my waist. "Troian, Troian!" He says pushing me back a little. "We can't do this, I'm sorry but I can't hurt you. It wouldn't be right for me to take advantage of you while you're upset." He says rubbing my arm and I nod.

"I'm sorry, you can wash your hair and I'll go out there somewhere." I say putting my head down and walking away crying. "Troian!" He says turning off the water and wrapping a towel around him. I'm lid down on our bed with the towel thrown over me like I would do with a blanket. "I want to, don't think that I don't. But it isn't right of me to take advantage of you while you aren't in your right mindset; you're broken, confused, sad, I-I just can't." He tells me. "Just because of this thing with Ashton, it doesn't mean you won't ever want to be with me like that again, will it?" I ask.

"Troian, I love you so damn much. I don't know what happened, she could of just been sick when inside of you, or when she came out. But one day, when Addison is a little older, I promise we can try again." He smiles kissing me. "Because I feel bad, she lost her sister. Not only was she her sister, it was her twin sister. They were going to be so alike, and it would all of been perfect. But now it's all sad and not perfect." I say. "Baby she'll grow up perfect I promise, this will change some aspects of her life but it won't change how much we love her." He tells me.

"I-I, yeah." I admit. "How about we get dressed and talk to our friends." He suggests before kissing me. "Can we ask them to leave after a little while? I don't want to be rude but, this is hard enough." I mumble and he nods. "Of course." He smiles. We both get dressed and we walk downstairs hand in hand, I barely speak. "Good morning." Sasha says after a few minutes of silence. "Morning." Keegan responds hugging her. He tries to push me towards her for a hug but I cling onto him.

"I'm sorry Sasha, she's—" he says before she interrupts. "Not in her right mindset, I get it." She smiles before sitting next to Shay. "Guys are you sure it's fine that we're here?" Ian asks. "Of course, Troian is just not too fond of anyone's presence except mine. But I understand that." He tells them as we walk to the couch. He sits me down and tries to slowly back away. I quickly grab his hand and pull him next to me. "Where's Addy?" Keegan asks stroking my hair.

"Lucy has her." Tyler says. "Where to?" He asks. "In her room, she was fussy." Tyler smiles eating his breakfast. "Yeah maybe we should go." Shay says pulling on Tyler's arm. "Oh, okay. I'll text you all later in the group chat." Keegan says before they all leave. Lucy walks into the room a few minutes later, as I curl on Keegan's lap asleep. "Hey, do you want me to stay and watch the baby?" Lucy offers. "I don't want to bother you." He says. "It's fine, let me take her to my house. I can have Ian over." She smiles and walks off to pack her bag.

"How about you and I cuddle for the rest of the day babe? We're soon shooting again, and Addison can come to set with us." He says and I nod. Lucy returns 10 minutes later with Addison all ready and a bag packed. "Okay so I'll bring her back whenever Troi is feeling better, just text me." She says before hugging Keegan and leaving. "Baby you have to talk, I miss your voice." He whispers in my ear and I give him a weak smile. He lays down and pulls me on top of him, and I immediately relax. "This is better, right?" He asks rubbing my back.

I sit on his lap so my legs are around his waist and then take his shirt off. He takes the blanket that is thrown on the floor, and throws it over us. I lay back down and rest my head on his chest. "I love you Troian. I know this is hard, I know you just want to never talk to anyone again, and I know you just want her back, but it's too late. Don't blame yourself, and not talk. There was nothing we could do babe. I don't want you blaming yourself because you are so beautiful inside and out, and don't deserve this." He says and a tear falls from my eyes onto his chest.

"I love you." He repeats and I smile. "I love you too." I choke out and a smile grows across his face. He kisses me and pulls me tighter in his arms. "How about we tell Marlene we're ready to go back tomorrow so we can get you out and about. It'll make you happier to be around friends." He suggests stroking my hair. "Sure, we can pick Addy up later on tonight so can we have a day to ourselves." I tell him and he smiles. "Of course. I'll go grab some movies and we can sit back and watch one. Text Mar!" He says laying me on the couch and walking off.

I take my phone out and text Mar.

Hey Mar, we can come back shooting tomorrow. I'm ready and need to take my mind off the whole baby thing. But Addison will need to come with us, but you can meet her tomorrow then! Xo, -Troian.

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This sucked but I wanted to update :)

Sorry for the lack of updates, it's almost been 2 weeks lol. I was on a school trip and couldn't exactly post, so here's a terrible chapter.

I'll try and get the story happier again cause the sad part is over! (For now 😉)

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