prose; bts

1.05

walking in the hallways,
tap tap, my shoes create.
backpack resting from behind,
while listening to students
go by.

"raehyun!" familiar voice rang through
turning around, it's you.
"oh hey," i thought to say while smiling
"have you seen jiyeo?" frowning, at the mention of her name.
thinking it was rude to do so, i smiled faintly. "she went out with taehyung."

you were in deep thought,
full of why's and should-have-been's.
i wanted you to badly realize
how you are hurting yourself
further more.

but how can i?
how can i stop you from loving someone who doesn't even see?

i have no right,
and can only watch in sight.

poor heart,
who gives out so much.
only to be returned
with nothingness.

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addressed to joo raehyun
160601

hey, i'm sorry i stained your pillow with tears the other night.
it was pastel blue, your favorite color. i promise i'll buy you a new one. don't argue with me on this because it's the least that i can do. you've been there supporting me and i really thank you for that. ever since we were little ones: you, me and jiyeo. i just hope i can move on and i don't know, maybe fall for another person that isn't jiyeo. but anyways, i couldn't make it to school since i'm auditioning at seoul. a company named BigHit.

won't be back until thursday!
i'll miss you, rae.
you're the best friend a guy can't ask for more.

take care of yourself! and last favor, keep an eye on jiyeo?

thank you.

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more tears stained the pillow
my, what a fool she has been.
only fools fall, she thought.
and she was indeed a fool

she wanted him to be happy,
even if it wasn't her

but hell does it hurt,
tearing her at the seams.
she withhold the heartbreaking
screams.