prose; bts

1.11

lying down on my bed, the letters tossed on my sheets they spread. months of not reading them, i was guilty for not writing back

i decided to randomly pick one and read it, since i was alone the whole day at my house. eomma, appa, eonni and oppa are out. working for their future

addressed to joo raehyun
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hey

so far BigHit has been treating us trainees well. that's good, right?
anyways, i hope you have been keeping an eye on jiyeo. tae told me you went to the beach! daebak, wish i could be there with you. i also heard that tae and jiyeo are hitting things off! :) ouch hahaha sorry.

you know what hurts the most, rae?

loving someone who already loves someone else

i still love her, so damn much.

alright i'm being too dramatic. but i know you wouldn't mind because that's the kind of friend you are, rae. you'd always be there and listen to me ramble things on my mind, or in my heart.

i miss you, rae. :)

—jeontokki, yes, the nickname you gave grew on me. hahaha

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i don't know what hurts the most, jungkook. loving you while you love her or her loving another while i see you hurt. and you know what? i don't know where i'll put myself

because you don't know that i love you

first letter down, more to go.

letting out a sigh in defeat,
when will this torture go?

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be mindful of the dates since rae will be randomly picking letters :)
thank you so much for the votes and comments! really appreciate it :)