prose; bts

1.16

addressed to joo raehyun
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raeeeeeee

i feel so lonely :(

i'm here in america. to practice my dancing skills, as mr. son had said. he's cool! hehe

i'm left here at the studio since i still don't feel like going home.

yeah, remember when i said that i'll be back on thursday?

i never did.
and i'm sorry for that

i know you waited for me and i feel so bad for not telling you. but i haven't got enough time since i'm about to debut soon!

isn't that amazing? :)

write soon, please. this is my 3rd letter and you haven't written back. did something happen?

–jeontokki

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i waited for you
waited for the time i'd hear you slam the door and head over to me
smiling from ear to ear before hugging the life out of me

i waited for the time we'd all be huddled over a table at our favorite fast food chain, gobbling over fries and stealing each other's smoothies.

jiyeo would trade for yours since she loved pistachio
you would sip in mine since you loved strawberry, too
i would drink yours since i like vanilla caramel

and we'd laugh so hard, milk would come out of our noses until we'll call jimin and taehyung to come over and spend the rest of the day with us.

disgusting, but it was a memory i'd like to relive again.

i never noticed it before

never noticed how close we really are, even if our friendship consists of 3 people. me, jiyeo and you

i remember when i told you the truth about taehyung being my half brother

"BUT HE LIKES YOU!" you said

and i laughed. "we sorted that out,"

that was the first time you hugged me real tight. you snuggled your face in neck while i struggled to place my face in your chest

it was awkward for me. i was blushing so hard i thought you'd notice

hugging my pillow up to the bottom of my nose, one name swirling through my mind before finally closing my eyes.

distant voices outside my room was the thing that lulled me to my slumber.

"she's asleep?"
"i think she is."
"oh. well, that's disappointing. i wanted to see her, ask how she's doing lately."
taehyung sighed before adjusting his specs in place, he had a lot of homework to finish but he was glad that the visitor in front of him took his mind off of it. "she's been doing fine. but i barely see her smile anymore. she's not emotionally fine, though."
the bare faced guy stood in front of raehyun's door, wanting to knock but couldn't because he didn't want to disturb the girl sleeping inside.

"i'll just visit another time." he said

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guess who