The High School Experience

☁️dreams☁️

Josh started to kiss me passionately and carried then me carried to his room. He laid me on the bed semi-gently ripping if both of our shirts never breaking the kiss. I was tangling my fingers in Josh's hair. Josh the moved from my lips to my neck leaving loads of hickeys. I let out loud moans when Josh reached my sweet spot. Josh softly moaned in response.

He then started to leave hickeys on my stomach, causing me to buck my hips. Josh decided to tease me by biting my underwear strap and popping it . This caused me to yell Josh's name, telling the whole neighborhood that we were getting it on. Josh looked up at me batting his eyelashes in a flirtatious way asking me for permission, I frantically shook my head.

Then I woke up with sweat running down my face. Just then I wanted to text Josh and tell him about my dream then I remembered who was in the dream. So I just opened my phone then I noticed that the time read 5:30 a.m.

"Well there's no point in going back to sleep now." I said to myself. I decided to scroll through though Twitter and Instagram until I had to get up. My Twitter notifications where just from some random person liking my stuff...I kinda got upset because this person interrupted my dream. But then I accidentally started playing my music...it was so loud that I woke up my sister Madison.

"Tyler, are you okay?" Maddy asked? "Uh yeah I accidentally played my music. I'm sorry I woke you." I said looking down at my blanket. "Are you sure. You only look down like that when somethings wrong. Or something happened." She said. "Pfft. No I'm not." I said lying. "Tyler. I'm 13 not stupid. You know that you can tell me anything. I'm always here for you." She said sitting on my bed. "I-I had a dream about Josh." I said. "Okay. What kind of dream. Like a 'let's skip through cotton candy and lollipops' dream, a 'please don't kill me kind' of dream, or a 'you're so sexy please do me' kind of dream?" She asked. "A 'please do me' kind of dream." I said.

She got up and closed the door so no one could hear what we were talking about. "What happened in the dream, Ty?" She asked walking back to my bed. "Well we starting kissing. Like passionately kissing. And then he carried me back to his room then we continue kissing and then more stuff happened and when we were about to 'get freaky with it' my phone went off with Twitter notifications." I said. "What happened as soon as you woke up?" She asked with her mouth basically touching the floor and her eyes practically out of her head. "I woke up sweating and then I wanted to text Josh but..." she cut me off. "You remembered who the dream was about." She said. "Yeah pretty much." I said. "Tyler have you ever had one of these types of dreams before?" She asked. "No. None that I can remember." I responded. "Okay. So this is
The first. Tyler,are you sure our don't like...like him?" She asked. "Umm I don't know." I said.

"Okay I know how we can figure out. Does he have any social medias?" She asked. "Um yeah. Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram." I said. "Okay what are they. I have an idea." She said. "Uh okay. Twitter and Instagram are both spooky_jim and his Facebook is Joshua Dun." I said. "Okay." She said. About a two minutes later she turned around her phone and on the screen was Josh with a girl I didn't know. "The caption says 'really gonna miss her.' Qe phone away. "You're jealous aren't you?" She said. "Pfft. I'm totally not." I said. "Tyler..." she said raising an eyebrow. "Okay fine. I would feel jealous. Who was that girl anyways?" I asked.

"It's his cousin. Apparently she moved to California a few months before we we moved here." She said. "That's weird. I just though Josh and his cousin were dating. I'm so disappointed in myself." I said putting my head in my hands. "Awe Tyler. That's exactly what jealousy does to you. Ask anyone they'll tell you the same thing." She said rubbing my back. "Does this mean I have feeling for him?" I asked her. "I don't know Tyler. I'm not able to tell you if you do or not. Only you can." She said

And in that moment I knew my life would change forever.
_____________________________An hour and a half later I needed to get ready for school. I got dressed somewhat slower than usual. After I was fully dressed I went down stairs to try and find something to eat, then I was headed for my bus stop. When I got there Josh was already waiting.

"Morning." I said not giving him proper eye contact. "Morning?" He said. "Yep." I said playing with the keys on my lanyard. "Are you okay? Did you sleep okay last night?" He said sounding worried. "Uhh...yeah o slept perfectly fine. How did you sleep?" I said trying not to think of what had happened just an hour earlier. "I slept really good. Are you sure you're okay? You're not looking at me." He said. I was about to answer but then the bus pulled up. I still say next to him because I didn't want him to think he did anything wrong.

When we arrived to the school everyone was already waiting for the bell to ring so we could go to class. I guess I looked a bit different than usual because Debby and Jenna kept looking at me like they felt sorry for me. "Tyler, are you okay?" Jenna asked. "Yeah are you because you seem like somethings wrong." Debby said. "Yeah I'm fine." When I said that Debby grabbed my hand and lead me away away from the group with Jenna walking next to me. "Tyler, you're not fine.  I know that 'I'm fine' I've said that 'I'm fine. What's going on?" Debby said. "Before we get to that, what hand location do you use? Your hands are really soft." I said. "I'm not sure. I got it from Bath and Body Works in the mall. Me and Jenna should take you some time." Debby said. "Really? That would be really pretty cool." I said. "Yeah it would be fun. But back to what's wrong with you. The reason that you know Debby's hands are soft. What's going on Tyler?" Jenna said. "If I tell you do you promise not to tell anyone?" I said hopefully. "We promise. We would never tell a secret. We're not that mean." Jenna said while Debby was nodding her head. "Okay. I feel that I can trust you guys to tell you this...

Ihadadreamwherejoshandiamostdidit." I said so fast they could hardly understand stand. "Whoa. Tyler. YOU HAD A DREAM WHERE YOU AND WHO ALMOST DID IT?!?" Jenna said yelling. "JENNA SHUT UP." Debby said smacking Jenna in the back of the head. "Sorry. You and who almost did it?" She said whispering. "Josh." Debby said. "I understand when people when people speak fast. I do it when I'm nervous." She added. "Tyler does this mean you have feeling for him? Or was this just a thing that happened?" Jenna asked. "Well I told my sister Madison about it and she showed me a picture of him and some girl. And I started to get jealous. And she thinks that I like him and I'm starting to think I do too." I said. "Oh geez so much has happen in the last ten minutes. Tyler, can me and Debby come over after school so we can continue to talk about this?" Jenna asked. "Ooo that's a good idea." Debby said. "I'll have to ask my parents but I'm sure they'll say yes." I said. Seconds later the bell rang and we all headed to class.

For the rest of the day I tried to pretend as if what happens this morning never actually happened but multiple times though out the day I found myself think it and what might have happened next if my phone hadn't woken me up. I also started to feel worried that if I was gay or at least bi, what my parents could possibly think or do to me. Would they kick me out of the house? Would they make their fifteen year old son live on the street because of his sexual preferences? All of these thought filled my head so fast I just about cried until I felt Debby put jet arm around me. "Tyler, just think: a few more hours then you're done with day. Debby said reassuringly. "Thanks for helping me though today." I said. "It's not a problem. I may not be a very emotional person but I sure can help someone get though a tough time." She said.

"I was the one to teach her how to be a helpful person and she end up being better at it than me." Jenna said. "Don't worry Jenna, you're still a nice and helpful person. "Awe thanks Tyler." Jenna said. "Any time." I said with a smile. "Hey I got home to smile." Jenna said happily. What Jenna said made me smile bigger which made both Jenna and Debby happy. Though out the whole day Debby, Jenna, and Josh texted me to make sure I was okay. I felt bad because I didn't talk to Josh much in the morning so I texted him more than I texted everybody else. Even though it did feel weird, I was still happy to be able to talk to him. Once seventh period came I texted my mom to ask if Debby and Jenna could come over because they wanted to talk to maddy.

I told them that they could come over. "Okay we'll be at you're house around 4:30 so you'll have enough time to settle down after a long day at school but not enough time to eat without us." Debby said. "Okay it's most likely just going to be us and my sister but my brothers might not have plans for tonight so I'm not a hundred percent positive." I said. "I guess we'll know when we get there." Jenna said. Then we all headed to our busses.