The High School Experience

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i asked the doctor to push me closer to josh. i was so heart broken to see him like that. he had a cast on his leg and one ok his arm, and also a tube in his throat.

"do you know what happened." I said. "Well the person who called 911, who witnessed the whole thing, told the police that josh threw his body over yours, so you wouldn't get hurt as bad." The doctor said. "Oh." Is all I could say without starting to cry. The doctor walked out of the room and I grabbed josh's hand.

"I-" I started and then I stoped. "Josh, please don't die. You're my bed friend. No, scratch that. You're more than that, I'm feeling things that I've never felt before. And you can't leave me as soon as you know how I feel. If you leave me I will never get over you, over any of this. I-" I was cut off. "Tyler, your family is here to see you." The nurse said. I nodded my head. She pushed me out of josh's room and back into my room. She also helped back into my bed.

Exactly five minutes later my family came in, alone with josh's family and Jenna and Debby. To say the least, I've never had this many people in one room because of me. "Tyler, oh my god." My mom said as she came as she came and kissed me on my forehead. "Oh my god Tyler" maddy said with tears in her eyes. "What happened?" She continued. "I don't really remember." I said. "What were you even doing out without telling me or your father first" I mom said starting to get a bit mad. "Mom, why don't we let Tyler get some rest right now. He's probably have a tough day." Maddy said getting our mom and dad out of the room. "Tyler what happened?" Jenna said grabbing my hand. "Like I said I don't remember much of anything. But like all I know right now is that josh is right down the hall and I'm not with him right now."

As soon as I said that I heard a siren go off and about 3 nurses and 5 doctors run in the direction of josh's room. I got so scared. "Go see what's going on" I said. "What?" Both Debby and Jenna said. "Go see what's happening! Is josh okay?!" I said loudly as tears streaming down my face. Jenna ran out of my room and into josh room and came back. "Tyler they wouldn't let me into his room." Jenna said right after I saw josh being rushed down the hall. "WHERE IS HE GOING?!" I screamed. I lost completed control over my emotions at this point. I needed to be with him right now. I never even wanted to leave in him the first place. Now all I can do is sit here and cry. "Tyler, I'm going to need you to calm down." One of the doctors said. I couldn't tell which one because my eyes were filled with tears. Then he had to put something over my face to help me breathe. Debby and Jenna both climbed into my hospital bed and helped calm me down. They relaxed me and got me to go to sleep.

A few hours later I woke up with Debby still next to me and Jenna passed out on the couch. "is josh okay?" i said is sort of a raspy voice. "um, i'm not sure i woke up right before you did and as you can tell, jenna is still sleeping." debby said. "can you go try to find the doctor?" i asked. "yeah i'll be right back." she said. debby came back with a doctor i haven't seen before.  "hi tyler, i'm dr. robbins, but you can call me Antonio." he said. "do you know if josh is okay?" i said worried. "do you mind if i sit down?" dr Robbins said. "go ahead." i said readjusting myself in my bed. "tyler, josh came out of surgery an hour or two ago and he's okay now," he stopped for a second. "but there is a possibility that he isn't going to wake up. he's got some pretty bad damage, especially to his head." he continued. i had a hard time comprehending what he said. "see, what happened is when the car hit you both, it took up both down and josh hit his head pretty hard. well, so did you but the damage to his head is going to be a lot harder to fix...but we can only fix it if he starts showing signs of improvement. so for right now, it's pretty much just a waiting game. try to talk to him as much as possible, keep him up to date on things, just like as if he were awake." he said.

"o-okay." i said. "i'll give you some privacy. but i you need anything you can call me." he said and then he left the room. i looked at debby. "how is this happening?! all we were doing is walking down the street, we weren't even in the road!!" i yelled. i accidentally woke jenna up. "what's going on." jenna said. "shh shh shh. let him vent, he needs this right now." debby said quietly. "why does this have to happen??? what did he do to deserve this? he didn't do anything!!" i said as i started to break down. "why does this have to happen? to him, to me, to all of us. what did we do to deserve this?! that's all i want to know!" i continued. "tyler you need to calm down." debby said finally speaking up. "HOW CAN I CALM DOWN??!" i yelled. "my best friend is in the next room, half dead. what am i supposed to do if the rest of him dies too?? my life will be over. there is only a few things i live for, and he's one of them." i said as a tear ran down my face. "tyler i know it's hard, i really do, you may not think so but i do. okay here, i know what will help you calm down." jenna said. she handed me a notebook. "write a poem. or even a song. write down all of your feelings. just express how you're feeling and hopefully you'll feel better."