My Last Sense

Chapter 38

[Her Revival]

"Serenity.."

Nagsimulang tumugtog ang kanta.

When the days are cold
And the cards all fold
And the saints we see
Are all made of gold

When your dreams all fail
And the ones we hail
Are the worst of all
And the bloods run stale

Bakas sa mukha niya ang pagkagulat, pagtataka, saya at.. takot? at dahil doon mas nagkaroon ako ng lakas na loob na aminin sa kanya ang nararamdaman ko.. Gusto kong maramdaman niya na hindi niya kailangang matakot dahil nasa tabi niya ako palagi.

Nagsimula kaming sumayaw na sumasabay sa awit.

"If you can't carry it all.. Just leave it to me... If you can't bear it all.. Just tell me and I'll help you with it.. If your dreams fall down.. please tell me so I can be your new dream.. And if .. if I would die.. Please stay by myside so I would leave this world happily.. "

"G-giovanni... " nakita ko na siyang umiiyak.

Para namang biniak ang puso ko. Bakit ko ba siya pinapaiyak hah!? Shit!

"Shhhh-- Hush my princess. Please don't cry.. " saad ko

Pinunasan ko ang mga luha niya. Bakit ba siya umiiyak? Hindi ba niya ako gusto? May mahal ba siyang iba? Pero kahit na.. Gusto ko paring malaman niya ang nararamdaman ko.. Saka ko nalang papatayin ang tarantadong lalaki na umagaw sa kanya.

I wanna hide the truth
I wanna shelter you
But with the beast inside
There's no where we cant hide

No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come

"I try to resist this feeling .. But the thing called "Love" I felt for you is just too strong that I cant manage to handle.. I suddenly felt like I must protect you, I must took care of you, you're beautiful and.. you hold my life.. " tumawa sako ng mahinahon, " .. I guess fate brings me here.. Brings me here towards you and I dont regret it at all.. "

Hindi parin siya tumitigil sa pagiyak at para bang natatakot siya. Parang gusto niya akong patigilin sa mga ginagawa ko pero hindi ako titigil hanggat hindi niya sinasabi. I want her to feel safe right her, with me.

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
Its where my demons hide
Its where my demons hide

Dont get too close
Its dark inside
Its where my demons hide
Its where my demons hide

"Im scared of falling inlove because I may drag in a war between Yours and my Family, Im scared of falling inlove with you because I might drag you in my world full of loneliness, coldness and sacrifices. Im scared of falling inlove with you because I thought I can't protect you the way others do.. " ramdam ko naman ang pagbagsak ng mga luha ko, ".. but I guess you tamed the demon inside of me and bring back the old Giovanni, who does really care, who does smile a lot... and I thanked you for that.. No, I loved you for that.. "

Oo, totoo lahat ng sinabi ko. Kaya nga iwas ako sa kanya nung simula palang. Pero tarantadong tadhana. Ako pa ang pinag laruan.

"Hey... stop crying.. " pinunasan ko ang mga luha niya, pero hindi talaga matigil eh..

At the curtains call
Its the last of all
When the lights fade out
All the sinners crawl

So they dug your grave
And the masquerade
Will come calling out
At the mess you made