Red umbrella ( June IKON )

Hard decision

My reflection in cracked mirror has changed. Should I be happy or sad for that? It's natural that we grew and mature, so I think that's the good thing. Standing un the middle of our living room and watching myself in the mirror all kind of thoughts appeared in my mind. Most of them were questions wth no answers.

Today I came there for the last time. House was sold and I wanted to see it once more.

Slowly I walked in my moms room, going through her stuff. In here wardrobe only two dresses,old sweaters and shoes.That is all what has left from her. So pitiful and sad. All her life was sad and painful, just I didn't realise that until I found bunch of letters wrapped in red silky scarf. All of them were from Italy. Sender: Giordano Maretti.Who was he? What kind of bond those two had?

I sat on the bed and took envelope,which was the most opened and red:"Cara mia ! This would be my last letter to you . I'm married man now.Nothing can change that fact.You know this was my fathers ultimatum. He would've disinherited me if I didn't obey his wish. Our family has long tradition and status, so you can understand his point of view. I tried all I could to make him undersand and to show him how much I love and care about you, but all in vain. He forced me to marry contessa Lara.Writing this I'm feeling how my heart is ripping apart, tears are in my eyes but I want you to stop waiting for me.There is no hope anymore,there is nothing left.....just a memory of us two together there on the beach under the sun.... Cara mia our love was impossible from the start but we steal little of time and loved each other truly and purely. My last wish is for you to be happy. Please don't cry and listen what I have to say. You have to move on and forgot everything. You have to try and live happy.I'm begging you not to be sad and hurt. I'm begging you to forget all. Only knowing that you are happy and safe I can live my life peacefuly.This would be my last letter and my last wish. Thank you for all those happy moments you shared with me,I will keep them deep in my heart and only remember when I'm alone.I love you always. Yours Gio from here to eternity."

I stand up and walked out from my house, locking the door for the last time. I felt like I locked all my bad memories and carried only good ones with me.

Walking slowly I ended up at the beach looking at the blue sea.- Here I am dear sea. It seems I always come to you when I'm sad or unhappy but this time my sadness is different. I can only be sad over my parents destiny.Buzzing cut my thoughts. It was message from June:"- Baby don't be sad I can feel your sadness all the way to here. You just close your eyes and imagine me hugging you."

I smiled at his words and closed my eyes lifting my head up, feeling cold breez charesing my cheeks. I felt his arms around me like they were really there.- I love you baby...- soft whisper in my ear sounded too real!!... Opening my eyes I turned around and saw June standing behind me- June you came here?1 But when? How?- He smiled widely at me- I'm your black angel so Ican fly if I want -he winked taking my hand- Let's take a walk I'm starting to like this beach because only in this place beautiful mermaid appeared befor me- I laughed- Yahh you cheese boy will you ever learn to talk like normal guys?- He grinned- Who said the are normal and I'm not?

We were walking hand in hand while i was telling him what I have discovered about my parents. - That is such a sad story... but I can't undersand your fathers deeds. He should've fight more and your mom hid the fact from him that she had you?- I shrug- I guess you are right but we don't know how exactly they both felt,it could be many reasons...- He wrap his arm around my waist pulling me closer- I just know I could not leave you. He pressed his lips against mine and around us waves crumbled onto the shore. In the distance sun was diving his face into the sea.

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It was bussy day at YG building. I had so much to do. My feet were killing me but I didn't want to stop until I finish all my tasks. MiRae was on the phone whole morning talking with supliers and Mr.Choi keept sending us reports of good delivery.Ikon double concert was just around the corner, only two days have left.I was working with orders and with stylist, seems she asked for me particularly.