Red umbrella ( June IKON )

After sadness comes happiness.....?

Two weeks I spended in my town visiting my mom at the hospital everyday. She woke up but didn't talk , refusing to eat. Doctor had to give her infusion and one night she manage to take of the needle from her hand, the result was that she dehydrated because of that. I tried to talk to her begging her to eat but she would just look away refusing to look at me. I was so worried and I didn't know what to do. YunRea called me everyday, she was the only person I could talk to.

-Let me talk to my father maybe he can find her place here in some hospital or private care.

-I really don't know what to do with her and I'm afraid if I leave she will do something to herself. She changed a lot and I don't know what is the cose of that.

Next day Mr.Park came with YunRea and we drove my mom in Seoul's private clinic. They provide full time care just what she needed. I wanted to take her to live with me but doctor said she needs professional care, so this clinic was the best solution.

Coming back to our apartment I sat on the chair and started to cry. YunRea hugged me tight stroking my hair.- She will be ok HyeMin, just give her some time to adjuce and you can visit her everyday now.- I nodded but I couldn't stop my tears.

Later that day YunJin came to see me, he was worried too.- You should've called me HyeMin-ah and I would come to be with you...- I just shook my head- It's ok.. Im fine now the worst is past...- He sat beside me taking my hand but I felt weird. I had questions which I wanted to ask him but I never did 'till now.All of a sudden something got me and I looked straight in his eyes.- Why do you hid your face from me?- He was confused- What do you mean? When did I hid my face from you?- Don't act so naive I know it was you!.. that guy who attacked me was you !!- He stood up- What are you talking about HyeMin?!- I stood too with hands on my hips- Why did you attack me? What did you want from me?... He shook his head- You are wrong it wasn't me.. how could I do something to harm you?!- Don't lie to me I saw bandage on your left hand and my attacker fell and hurt his left hand...so don't you dare deny that you are him!!- He was still shaking his head- No,no !! That was not me! I never did that to you I swear!!- I folded my hands- Prove it then!- He lowered his head looking at the floor- I can't ..not yey... - I smirked - You are liar and you are not my friend! - I turned my back to him but he turned me to face him- I was practicing dance that day for audition and I fell hitting my hand.- He pulled some paper from his pocket and I saw aplication form for audition- I didn't want anybody to know what I'm trying to do but I can't stand this acusations from you! I might not be tall and handsome like some but I can compose my own songs...

My eyes were wide open- You want to be a singer? - I asked quietly. He nodded- I'm hoping to be, that is my wish since I was a kid.- I closed my eyes and sat on the bed- I'm sorry YunJin... I'm so sorry... don't know what got me...- He sigh- It's ok and I understand why you were suspacting me...and I should've told you what was my plan anyway...- He sat back on the cahir and we both remain silent. YunRea came inside looking at us with a question- What happened to you two? When I left you were chating with smiles on your faces and now this? - I think I'm going crazy that is the only explanation I have..- I said looking at the floor. Since the day June left me like that I couldn't act normal. adding to that situation with my mom I was sure that I losted. My thoughts and my actions wasn't mine, like it was some other person.- Damn you June what have you done to me?!

I failed my exame.... but I didn't care. These days I didn't cared about anything to be exact. Situation with my mom was the same. Doctor said she's depressed without a will to live. All that got me. I was strong outside doing my routines and all but in the inside I was scared and lost. I didn't know what to do. YunRea was trying her best to chear me so at the end I started to pretend that I'm fine. Did she believed me or not I wasn't sure but we were trying to act normal like all was fine.