Red umbrella ( June IKON )

Sweet and bitter

YG warehouse was big a place filled with endless shelfs and boxes. Accessories were at the left and costumes,fabrics and shoes at the right.

I came there to take some fabrics for making Ikon flags. I needed red,white and black. Simple right? Not at all!

Guard,small man with frowned face, let me in and just left leaving me there to manage by myself. I left a sigh- Ok I can do this...how hard could it be to find fabric? Turning right, I was walking among tall shelfs,stuffed with all kinds of cloth. - Ah there it is!- I saw colors that I needed and pushed tall ladders so I can reach for it. Pulling first roll, I let it fall down because it was big and heavy. Second one,black color, was smaller and I took it with both hands going down but my leg slipped at the end and I sat hitting other shelf with my back. Stuff from there started to fall on my head and I covered my face. When all stop I looked around, it was a mess! Luckily I wasn't hurt but tears started to stream down my face and sobs came out.

All hit me suddenly and flash backs started to appear before my eyes: June and Stella kissing,her words,their argue,June's father kneeling befor me... I was crying so hard not being able to control myself anymore. Hugging myself with both hands,rocking back and forth in that endless pain I was feeling. " I'm here to beg you to let go June..."June's fathers voice echoed "He is my only hope and only solution. He must marry Stella to save our company,to save our workers. We have almost thousand workers whos lives depend on us!What would they do if the company close> They will end up on the streets... "- man had tears in his eyes and I was looking at him speachless. What could I say? Did I had right to say anything? The truth hit me so hard. I felt pain in my stomach,in my heart,in my whole body.

How can you suck all the love spreaded in your veins? How can you dug all the roots seeded in your tissue? How can you kill emotions when every heart beat of yours depends on it? You can't! But I had to... I had to do that for greater good. I was small and significant, having no right to destroy others peoples lives just to steal piece of happines from this world. So i said "yes" - Yes I will let him go...

My whole body was shaking from crying. Until now I I held myself,never shed a tear. Also I didn't tell to anyone what I have decided,not even YunRea. But at that moment my breakes loosen  so I cried and I cried until I had no more tears...

Holding one of the farbic rolls I get up slowly and took others leaving warehouse. Guard looked at me with wide eyes,I guess I was looking horrible but who cared for that...My life had to go on and I have to learn how to live with that.

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"iKONCERT" big letters were glowing high up there.I was standing at the future scene of Ikon's concert. Workers were adjucing the lights and one of them asked me to stand in the middle. All around me was dark, only that one ray of light was pointed at me.- Move little to the left please! Man yellded from above and I made one step on the left- Thats right! Just stand still I need to connect this wires!- But suddenly all become dark and I heard one angry voice from above. I smiled figuring that he connected something wrong. 

I'm not sure how long I was standing there in the dark when I felt someones hands wrapping around my waist and warm breath touched my neck.- I missed you baby..- he was whispering in my ear ,sending chills down my spine. I turned around and his lips found mine kissing me with passion. My heart was pounding and I felt tears in my throat. How I missed him! His touches,his kisses,his smell...

I closed my eyes,only feeling his lips and his tongue. -If the world should end let me be in his arms at that moment!! - But he let go of me and I blinked at the lights,standing there alone, realizing how my future will look like from now on...Alone...