The Darkness Inside

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Grace POV

We were watching Grey's. Just hanging. That's all. And he kissed me. And Jared walked in. He yelled at and walked out. I screamed at Blake. He apologized and left in tears. I can't find Jared. He's not called. I'm scared.

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It's been two days. He's not came around. I'm cutting again. I started yesterday. I miss him. He's a drug. My drug. And I'm on an overdose.

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I keep listening to his voicemail. I took off my promise ring. It's been a week. I'm dying inside. I need to go see him.

Jared POV

She was kissing him. Not even pulling away. She never loved me. But I still love her. I miss her so much. But I've never hated her more. She calls me.

I hear a knock on my door. It's her.

"Get away from me Grace. Go home."

"I'm so- sorry...J-ja-Jared. Here's the ring."

"I SAID GET AWAY!"

I'm so hurt and angry, but even still, I love her. I take the box and throw it across the room.

"I DIDN'T KISS HIM! HE KISSED ME! I LOVE YOU! WHY WON'T YOU LISTEN?!"

"BECAUSE YOU'RE LYING! YOU'RE A NASTY LIAR GRACE! YOU NEVER LOVED ME LIKE I DID YOU! WHAT DO THE WORDS I LOVE YOU EVEN MEAN TO YOU GRACE?"

She runs out. I feel bad, but I don't. She deserved it, but she didn't. I love her. Oh god, I love her. But I can't stand to look at her right now. I could normally forgive, but I promised. She did too. It's an even deal. She knew I didn't like Blake.

Grace POV

I run out crying. He hates me. There's no compassion left in him. I know I shouldn't feel like this over a guy, but he's it. He's all I've got and he hates me.

You blame him? Kill yourself already.

I love him so much. I miss him. I can't take it. I'd rather be gone that have to bear the thought that we'll never be the same. So that's what I'll do. I'll be gone.