Playfull Kiss: My Love Of Life Oh HaNi

Stream of sorrows

Sung-jo's POV

           Hani was still unconscious, I was really worried about her.  How will I inform her that she lost the baby... I heard some sound and turned around to see hani awake. She was trying to pick up water jug. I went near her and poured water into a cup.

        "Hani...drink this" I helped her to drink water from the glass. Suddenly she pushed me away and gave me an angry look. "Don't you dare touch me...I don't want to see you. Get lost" hani shouted. I was shocked with her sudden reaction.

           "Hani...what happened" mom came running hearing her sound. "Mom...I lost my baby... I'm not worth being a mother. I was unable to protect my child. Mom...why was god so cruel...he took my baby away from me" hani started crying. 

          "Hani...you are not a bad mother. I am the one who caused everything. I'm sorry hani..." I went near her to console her. "Move your dirty hands off from me. You are a murderer... You killed my child. Don't touch me... Go away..." She shouted at me.

         Her reaction was really unpredictable to me. I never expected her being so furious at me. She always loved me...what I am. Whatever I said or did to her... She always loved me. But never despised me. Never hated me this much.

           Days passed...but she never looked at me. She always avoided me and my presence. She was gloomy and depressed but i was unable to console her. Even if she doesn't likes me I should tell her about my training. "Hani...I'm going for a training at England. Its of 4 months duration..." She didn't even looked at me or behaved as if I was not there.

         "Mom I am going for a training at England. Its a four months training camp..." I told mom when we all were having dinner. "Ok...sung-jo, when are you going" mom asked me. "Most probably... Next week" I informed her. Hani never seemed bothered about me going away for a while.
(End of POV)

Two weeks later: Hani's POV

           Its been almost 1 month after my miscarriage...but still I can feel that pain of loss in my mind. I was totally depressed... I was too depressed that, I can't even forgive sung-jo being reason for my miscarriage. I don't think I will be able to forgive him.

          It's only after min-jun, jaekyung and haejoo told me to move on...I came back to work. Actually they made me realize my value of being a nurse. I should do a lot of things for others to hide my sorrow otherwise I will become more pitiful. I don't want to be a burden for someone...so I started working.
     
           "Hani...what are you thinking about? Are you not going home...if you work like this you will faint" Dr. Kim asked her from behind. "I'm a mother who lost her kid recently...so what else reason do I need for being like this?" I snapped out. "Hani...why are you being so harsh towards me... I didn't do anything wrong towards you" Dr. Kim said with a surprised eyes.

            "Sorry...I didn't meant to hurt you" i said. "Let's go out after work...just you and me... best friends only" he said with a smile. "Okk let's go" i smiled at him... Actually I acted like I'm smiling. I haven't smiled after that incident.

             Dr. Kim was waiting for me at the entrance. "Hani...let's go... First I have to go to my home and change my dress. I had an accident case, and smelling blood all over the body" he dragged me to his car.

            I was waiting for him in his study...I saw a rack full of books. I took out a book from shelf causing some other books to drop. I saw a diary and took it. I saw sung-jo's picture inside it along with mine. Suddenly someone pulled that diary from my hands. I turned around to see Dr. Kim standing behind me.

          "What are you doing... Its not a good manners to read someone else's diary" he said angrily. "Oh...I'm sorry I didn't read anything. It just dropped down when I pulled this out of the rack" I told him showing other book in my hand. "Okk...I believe you.. Let's go" he said with a smile. But I could feel tension in his voice.
(End of POV)
 
          "Why was mine and sung-jo's picture inside his diary...my picture was recent one. But sung-jo's picture was old one. May be from his high school or before that. How did he got something that old... He told me that he came back from abroad recently.. Then how??" Hani was still thinking about it even at late night.

Hani's POV

         Its been almost 4 months... Sung-jo will be back soon. But I don't know why...I didn't felt any excitement over this news. He kept calling me...sometimes while i was working and couldn't answer his calls. But i was not so pleased to answer his call either.

     May be I never wanted to see or hear him...I didn't even missed him all these while. Did I started hating him... No...its not possible. Still...I'm in love with him.. How can I hate my sung-jo. But I'm mad at him...for what he had done. It will take time for me to forgive him.

           Dr. Kim was always by my side as a brother...as my best friend. He always supported me emotionally. I believe him more than anyone. He is like my brother. But I never told him that...he makes me smile...makes me feel cared...he is warm and loving.
(End of POV)

Sung-jo's POV

              I was totally avoided by my hani for all these months. I kept calling her...but either she ignored my call or else she gave me some cold replies. I think she is still mad at me. When I reached home, she was not there. Mom told me that she comes home rarely.

            I went to hospital and found her happy with Dr. Kim. She was smiling and I'm seeing it after 4 months... I think I should leave her so that she can be happy in her life. I will always be rude and cruel towards her... Its better she finds someone like Dr. Kim...

AN: sorry for making this chapter boring...