octahate || joshler

chapter twelve

:tyler:

i brought jenna back to my house until it was time to go next door. we laid in my bedroom as i continued to rant to her.

"why did he kiss a boy? i'm sure as hell that he won't dare to tell me about it."

"you guys aren't even friends, if all you've been doing is trying to one-up him."

"i want him to miss me."

"tyler, that's not going t-"

i cut her off "you don't know that, he might have seen you and me together."

"he has his own life and you have yours. he doesn't care, tyler."

"he does care, i know it."

she stood up slightly yelled at me "tyler, do you have a crush on him or not?"

"no, why w-would i?"

she sat back down next to me and crossed her arms. the air was filled with silence for about 3 minutes.

"jenna? what would you do if i did have a crush on him?"

"because you do. tyler, you would not make some random boy jealous just for fun."

"fine, you're right." i sighed before my parents interrupted with telling me to get ready to next door.

i hugged jenna goodbye as she walked her way home, alone.

i didn't care and i wasn't going to embarrass myself again. i tried to shock him and it didn't work. i tried not caring, didn't work. i tried everything expect being casual.

which is what i'm about to do.

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:josh:

after a wild game of spin the bottle, everyone went home except me. i followed gerard and frank into the house and we just sat on the couch watching reruns of cartoons.

"ahh look at the time, it's almost time for you to leave." gerard turned to me.

"what do i do? my gay ass can't handle the fact he has a girlfriend."

"just act casual, let him beg for you." frank called out from the other side of gerard.

"exactly, don't crawl for him. it never works out honestly after years of doing it, i think i know things." gerard told me.

i nodded as we began watching more reruns until it was time to go.

i stood up after laying in a couch position for multiple hours, it was painful.

"i got to get going." i shrugged staring down on them.

gerard stood up and hugged me "i don't want you to get heartbroken. if you can sneak out tonight, you're welcome here with me and the neighbor boys."

"i'll try, see you later." i waved as i walked out of their house.

i rushed home and before i knew it, it was 7:18. i was actually fucked.

i entered into my house and everyone turned to me. my mom called out "joshua! you're home late again!"

"i know, i got caught up. i'm here now." i rolled my eyes as i walked into the living room, there was a lonely tyler.

i sat on the couch directly across from him, laying on my floor.

"are you okay?" i said in a low tone.

"i was bored to death, thank god you're here. middle aged women annoy me while i'm alone."

i nodded "w-well it was cool s-seeing you at the yogurt shop. wh-ho's the lucky lady?"

"um m-my girlfriend, jenna. she's pretty cool."

i raised my eyebrows in response. i just stared at my phone for the rest of the night, updating gerard on what is going on in here.

before you knew it, we didn't talk to each other until they were ready to leave.

"wait josh! we're friends, right?" he whispered next to me."

"yeah, sure." i said in a confusing tone.

he waved to me before being shoved outside the door. after that, i went into my room until my parents went to bed.

tonight, i'm sneaking out.