octahate || joshler

chapter seven

:tyler:

josh should never trust a silly little boy like me ever again.

im only using him to keep me safe from someone and that "someone" is myself.

i don't want to be his friend, i don't want to be his boyfriend.

i don't know why i kissed him but i'm not the one being blamed for it. i don't know what got over me.

i don't like josh but i'll pretend that i have to.

for josh: honey you got a big storm coming.

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:josh:

"so you were caught again last night?" my mother said to me.

i felt my heart drop and starting to pound quickly through my body.

"with what?" i questioned her.

she sighed "what did i tell you with giving the neighbors a bad impression about us?"

"what did i do?"

"you know what you did, you slept with a guy for christ sake!"

i stood there in shock for a split second. did tyler just tell my mom that we slept together?

"josh, just go upstairs and get ready. i'll deal with you later."

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i wasn't sure if i was angry, sad or just wanted to drop kick tyler off of a cliff.

i have to see him again tonight. "i hate my life" i mumbled to myself after plopping myself down on the carpet.

why did he kiss me if he doesn't even like me? was he just lying to me when he said he was my friend?

i heard the door open and the same three people walked in once again, i have to see the devil child himself.

i went downstairs in a plain black hoodie and went straight to the couch, walking directly past him.

he came in a floral kimono and weird white sunglasses. he stumbled his way next to me.

"what's wrong, honey?"

"get the fuck away from me and why the hell are you dressed up?"

"i don't know i just wanted to do something different for once."

i rolled my eyes "why did you lie to my parents."

"well honey, you see, i didn't clearly didn't want to get caught at all. you have nothing to lose and they found us passed out in your bedroom so."

"you could have simply said that it was both of us. it's not that fucking hard."

"alright joshie boy, i'll tell you the truth" he said as he took off the sunglasses and threw them across the room.

"you see, if i get caught once, i'll be forced to move out of this town. if you get caught, nothing will happen. your parents said you're already too far out of control to take care of. so i let you take on for the team."

"then why the hell are we doing this if all you'll do is almost get kicked out of here."

"i don't want to be mr goody two shoes, i want to be free and have someone to cause trouble with me. its my personality or my ego that i continuously have to keep feeding."

i sat there in pure silence until tyler continued to speak "my mind's a weird place but he knows what he's doing"

"who is the "he" that you're disc.." tyler put his finger to my lips and got up and walked away

i want this day to get over with already.

and i still want to know why he's dressed up, i'm confused.