It was barely half past eight now, and I didn't know what to do. I decided to isolate myself in the bathroom upstairs. I marched up the steps weakly but trying to hurry. I didn't want to grab anyone's attention, I didn't want to see anyone. I didn't want them to know what had happened to me.
I went inside and shut myself in the bathroom. I sat on the toilet seat and put my head in my arms. I thought about everything that was happening, and started crying. Not only were my feet aching but my legs were too, from the huge heels I had worn since five o'clock. I was an amateur with high heels.
I took them off and tied my hair up. My neck was sweating from the warmth that all these bodies were letting out from dancing. My tears kept pouring and I felt so unbelivably deppressed. You just wanted to be popular, I whispered to myself, wanting to scream. I continued to cry and reminding myself about my makeup.
I got up steadily and walked a few steps towards the mirror and saw black marks all around my eyes and cheekbones. My tears were black and ran down my neck. My eyes were deep blue. But all I could see in there was a sad girl waiting for attention. Looking at my own sadness made me angry and self pity rose up. I held the sink tightly and wanting to throw something. I took a pottery cup and threw it onto the window. It smashed and crumbled into the bathtub which layed beneath.
I sat on the floor and burst again into tears.
"Hey! Who's in there?!" yelled a masculin voice
I wiped my tears off and sniffed.
Trying to make myself sound fine, I replied
"Uh... Who is it? I mean... What do you want??" I was totally confused and weak.
"Just get the f*** out I need a piss" he knocked on the door. I dragged myself up and unlocked the the door. He yanked the door open and I stumbled out.
"Geez, someone's having a bad night" he said as he looked at me up and down. He was a tall large boy, who seemed to be an older one.
I stood in the coridor and left to Felicia's
bedroom. I tried at least to fix my face up a bit and went down the steps slowly. Humiliated. Felicia came over to me quickly.
"What were you doing??, she yelled, that guy is a total jerk! And ugh, you stink of smoke go get some deo. I don't want my mum yelling at me because of some trashy slut." she
stopped and continued dancing.
I stared at her with cold eyes.
"Felicia! If all of this happened it's because of you! All of this crap is bevause of your slutty ass brain! And you're saying I stink of cigarettes?! You're the who smells like you smoked a lot pavket! Oh and by the way your breath stinks of alcohol.-I sighed - I thought you were my friend I thought you were finally gonna stop being such a fat bitch, but no. No..." Tears staryed pouring down. Everyone was watching even Felicia.
"Well life's a bitch Renee."
I stood on my two feet, anger raging inside me. I wanted to leave. Leave now. But where to? I couldn't show Cece and Chloe the truth, and my mum... Oh gosh. What was my mother to think when she saw me like this?
Suddenly I felt my legs were weak and my heart dropped.
YOU ARE READING
Secrets
Fanfic" There was a moment of silence. They were looking at eachother. Cece suddenly burst out: "Wow. Really?! So basically you just explained to us that you were living a painful, pathetic life by our side and that we're not popular enough for you so you...
