No More Tears

Chapter 6

Emma's POV

I walked out of that unknown dark room. I hurried to my room. Once I was in my room, I locked it not bothering about Lisa. I breathed heavily. I was so confused. I was not able to picture whatever was happening. I am sure who was that person. But why?? He called ME selfish! How the hell was I selfish. I don't understand what does he want from me. It's enough!! I have to talk to him. What is his problem?

I was snapped back from my thoughts from the soft knocking on the door. I quickly opened it.

"What were you doing?" Lisa asked stepping inside.

"Nothing. How was your day?" I asked her changing the topic.

"Good enough, and yours?"

"Great" I muttered happily remembering all the enjoyment I previously had with Zayn.

"Oh! Without me?" She pouted annoyingly.

I laughed at her cuteness. But not to forget that she did not bothered to look for me when she was with Liam. Let it be. I forgive her. I smiled again. I don't know why was I smiling so much. I was just happy, and I didn't wanted to ruin it by anything or anyone.

"Emma, have you found your new companion??" She said smiling snapping me back from my thoughts.

"What?" I said chuckling.

"Don't make me fool. Okay??" She said giving me suspicious yet funny look.

I again chuckled and rolled my eyes at her.

"Lisa, you are thinking too much!" I exclaimed punching lightly on her shoulder.

"Okay okay now shall we leave for our dinner?" Lisa said dragging me outside.

"I'm very very hungry." I said nodding

We were in the dining hall in 50 secs.
This time gladly we sat together. I was eating my dinner talking with Lisa when my eyes roamed through the another table. I saw Zayn looking at me. Huh?? When I looked at him he simply winked his eyes and waved at me. I just smiled and rolled my eyes. I didn't realized that I was blushing until Lisa poked me and asked me about what was going on. I just made a lame excuse and changed the topic. Oh god, this guy is really getting in my head. But somewhere I felt a bit shy whenever Lisa or Harry and Niall poked me about this, but I don't feel happy about it. I am pissed off. Oh god help me.

I hardly ate my food. I don't know why but my eyes always flickered through the entrance. I did not saw Liam anywhere. I guess he has skipped the dinner. Once more I accidentally glanced over the table where Zayn was sitting. Only now he did not caught me. I stared him for awhile. His hair was messily placed. Some strands of hair was flickering over his eyes while he did nothing to move it. He was kind of cute. At the same time he had a great biceps, which could blow anyone with one hit. He was smiling. Maybe Harry said a joke coz Zayn was nodding to Harry and laughing so hard. On the other hand Niall was out of control. He would've fallen from his seat if Harry would have not had a hold on his shoulder to support him. While Harry was just having a toothy grin. They were so cute friends. I have not seen so much understanding in friends before this. I hope they remain like this forever. I smiled at them and Harry caught me. Damnit!!!! He elbowed Zayn to look at my direction. Zayn looked at me and then smiled. Weird. Then Niall looked at me and then at his mates and started laughing. This made them laugh too. Why?? Wait maybe they were joking about me when Harry caught me looking at them and that's why they are laughing like a fools. I furrowed my eyebrows and gave them a death glare. No way I am going to look at them anymore. I shook my head and looked at my plate. I had hardly eaten anything. I did not wanted to eat. So I just looked at the entrance. No one. My eyes was just rambling over the other table this time. I was caught aback when I saw Liam, sitting alone. His eyes were fully red. He looked sad; so sad. But why? I felt the urge to go and ask him what's wrong. But the thing was that I can't ask him. I can't ask him what happened. I can't ask him whether he's ok or not. I can't. And I hate the fact that I can't. I hate the fact that we're not together anymore. And that's why I cannot ask him anything about his life. I fear that he might say that who the hell has given me right to question him, because we are no more together. I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't noticed that my eyes were tearing up. I quickly wipe away my tears. I hope that nobody noticed me. I took a deep breath and stood up from my seat. I did not wish to stay anymore here. I want to go to my room and spend some time alone. I doubt whether Lisa would let me spend some time alone. I don't know where to go. I said to Lisa that I will be back after sometime and went outside for some fresh air. I stood in the garden. I closed my eyes and inhaled the fresh air sharply. All the memories came back into my mind, and I couldn't control my emotions. I let the tears flow from my eyes freely. Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned around, tears still in my eyes. I saw Zayn. He looked worried and sad. I did not control my tears. I started crying like a child. He pulled me in his arms, and I sobbed in his chest for sometime. I did not realized anything, I did not realize what was going on. Now I just needed someone to comfort me.

After some time I pulled myself back from him, and looked at the ground. I was ashamed of myself, that I broke down in front of someone. I had a habit of keeping everything to me, but today I just could not handle.

"Why?" Zayn asked me quietly. I can feel the worries in his voice.

"Uhhh...um..nothing I was just missing my family." I said still looking at the ground.

"Look at me." He demanded softly.
I did not looked at him. I was ashamed to face him.

"Look into my eyes Emma" he said softly grabbing my chin and pulling up so he could see my face.

I looked in his eyes. I can feel the warmth and comfort his eyes were providing me.

"I know that you're lying to me." He said looking deeply into my eyes.

"No, Zayn I'm not lying. Why would I lie??" I said and tried to fake a chuckle but failed.

"If you don't wanna talk about it, then its ok." He said taking my hands in his hands.

I nodded. He seemed to understand that I don't wanted to talk about it. We walked hand in hand to the bench.
We sat down at the bench looking at the clear sky. The moon looked so bright and big.

"Thank you Zayn." I said.

"It's ok. No need to thank me. I mean I'll always hold you tight when you need someone. I'll always be there for you." He said looking at me. I looked at him and I saw pure affection and care in his eyes. I smiled to him and rested my head on his shoulder. When I have him around me, I feel so secure.

After some half an hour we both stood and walked to our respective rooms.

"Take care." He told me as I was stepping inside my room.

"Good night." I said smiling at him.

He walked away. I watched him walking away. I felt empty. I did not wanted him to go. I was left all alone again and it hurts so bad. I walked inside my room and closed the door softly. I sat by the window recalling everything. Why did Zayn cared so much about me? Why did I felt empty when he left? I should not feel in this way. I thought to myself. Again questions started coming to my minds. Why did Liam called me selfish? Why was he sad? Why was his eyes red? Was he crying; but why?? All this questions made my head heavy. My eyes were burning like hell. My eyes felt heavy. I laid down at my bed and closed my eyes. Due to the burning sensation in my eyes, tears rolled down from my closed eyes. Soon I felt dizzy and fall asleep in a dreamless night.