He Doesn't Know

Three

"It'll be really fun come on Vera," Geisel begs. I laugh and tell her, "You're only saying that because you want to go but not without me. Since last time you saw...what was his name? Dylan? Yeah you only want to go to see Dylan." She blushes at the mention of his name, which makes me happy to see she's happy. "Fine we'll go," I give in. She shrieks and wraps her arms around me while jumping up and down. "Oh I'm sorry are we twenty or five?" I jokingly ask her. She lets me go and goes to her closet while telling me, "Pick my outfit out. Something that says I didn't miss you Dylan, but I'm ready to get down and dirty now." I start to burst out laughing and walk up to her closet.

Geisel and I are walking up the stairs to the all too familiar frat house. I sigh and turn to Geisel telling her, "I'm getting so drunk tonight, so come find me before you go back. Oh wait you're planning to hook up with Dylan, so just make sure I'm ok. Ok?" She informs me, "I'll tell Fallon." I glare at her and sternly reply, "DO NOT tell Fallon. Geisel promise me you won't." She laughs and says, "Ok if you insist." But I have an uneasy feeling that she's going to anyway. I open the front door and find many people already clearly drunk and others humping each other on the dance floor. "Vera!" people around me yell as I step inside. I look over at them and smile and wave. Then I look over at Geisel and follow her gaze, Dylan. She looks over at me and is about to say something but I beat her to it by saying, "Go get him Geisel, besides I'm going to go find the booze." She smiles at me, then leaves in the direction of Dylan. I go in the kitchen and find a keg. I smile and make my way to it. "You're eager to start drinking, look at that smile," I hear someone say. Knowing that attitude, it's Fallon. Sure enough I turn and find him leaning against the counter.

 "You don't drink, why are you in the kitchen?" I ask wanting him to leave so I can drink in peace without being under his judging eyes. He smiles and tells me, "I knew if you did come, you'd go to the alcohol first. Drinking to forget someone is never the right way to do so." I blush and look at the floor real quick, he was waiting for me. I collect myself and look back at him while saying, "I don't need you to tell me anything, I'm a big girl." He rolls his eyes and walks up to the keg and takes a cup to fill it up. Then he walks up to me and hands it to me while saying, "Here big girl. If you need a drink tell me and I'll get it for you, because god knows you won't be counting how many you'll have. So I will for you." I take the drink and chug it down. I give him the empty cup and he smirks at me. "Thanks drink whore, go get me another," I tell him. He doesn't move for a second then finally he grabs my cup and refills it. "Vera take it easy I don't want to find you with alcohol poisoning," he tells me before giving me the cup. "Fallon you're a party pooper, you know that?" I ask him while poking his chest. He laughs softly and tells me, "You're such a light weight." I glare at him to try to ignore the fact that I do already feel fuzzy. I grab his hand and walk towards the area where people are dancing. "Dance with me!" I yell over the music. He gladly follows with no resistance, but I plan to lose him in the crowd. I don't need him closely watching me all night. I push through the close crowd then release his hand, since I'm smaller than him I can maneuver through. Once on the other side, I look at the crowd and find his blonde hair. He's still stuck among them. I laugh, I'm so clever. He doesn't know me like he thinks he does.

I make my way outside and go to one of the benches, where Hunter is, a guy in one of my classes. A real class asshole, but someone I know will not care what I do with him. I down my second cup of whatever was in the keg and approach him. "Hey Hunter," I say while sitting down next to him and turning on my flirt. "Vera well hello," he tells me while giving me a smile that I see makes the girls woo over him. I smile back and place my hand on his shoulder and scoot closer. "Going to be honest here, I want someone to get my mind off of...him. What do you say? Cool with a fun hook up?" I ask him. He licks his lips and leans closer while telling me, "My kind of girl. I'd love to do anything with you." He connects his lips with mine and I allow his tongue to make its way into my mouth. I break away and tell him while tracing his jaw line, "Go get me another drink and then we can go somewhere quieter." He jumps up and leans down to give me a quick kiss then tells me, "Stay right here." Then he leaves. I begin to think, I don't think I'd ever could have done that sober. I'm not this type of girl, but I want to use someone to get Connor off my mind, especially seeing him yell at Fallon today that he still loves me. I'm a little nervous though, I am a virgin. I don't really think too much more about it, probably the alcohol taking affect. "Here you go babe," Hunter gives me back my drink. I take a sip and let him take me by the hand back into the house.

 We're making our way towards the stairs when Hunter looks back and asks, "You sure you're ok? I know you've never done...this. I'll take care of you though, don't worry." I smile and place my lips against his, then pull away and say, "I'm sure Hunter. Let's go." He smiles again and leads the way up the stairs while I chug the rest of my drink. Once upstairs we find an empty room and Hunter picks me up in his arms, while kissing me intensely. He softly places me on the bed and begins to kiss me down my neck and shirt, while his hands reaches into his pocket. I see him holding a condom and rips it open. My breath hitches when I see him undoing his pants. I scream when the door bangs open. Hunter is pushed off of me. "Are you fucking kidding me?" he angrily asks. But I understand everything. Fallon's standing in front me looking like he could kill Hunter right here, right now. 

"Get up Vera," Fallon sternly says and averts his attention to me now. I don't move, considering I'm slightly taken back from everything happening so fast. "I swear to god Vera, get the fuck up or I will carry you out of this house," Fallon continues. I oblige immediately from his anger. He takes my hand and drags me down stairs and goes toward the front door. Once out in the front yard and off to the side where no one is, he finally releases my hand. "What the fuck are you doing?" I ask him angrily, letting the alcohol take its control. He laughs mocking me and asks, "Me? What am I doing? Vera what are you doing? Please don't tell me you were going to give your virginity to that guy?" I look away, he's making me feel bad. But I regain my confidence and yell, "So what! I can do whatever I like!" Pain flashes across his face and he tells me, "Tomorrow when you would've woken up whether it be with that guy or in your own bed, you would have regret. That I know. Vera don't throw your values away, because Connor broke your heart, because Connor hurt you in a way unbearable. Don't let him have the chance to have that control over you. I know you and this means so much to you." His words hit me like a brick. "Fallon take me home please," I softly tell him. He's right, he's exactly right. I was going to let Connor win if I would have given up that easily.

Outside my dorm, I unlock the door then turn around to look at Fallon. "Can you stay with me?" I ask him. After the last couple of days, I need someone to be here and hold me. He looks down at me and replies, "You don't have to ask twice Vera. Of course I will." I go to my bed and take off my shoes then crawl in bed. Fallon looks down at my bed and says, "Yeah we're both not going to fit on here Vera. I'll sleep on the floor." I frown and tell him, "NO. Fallon if you get real close we'll fit." He smiles and gets in the bed lying next to me. I feel his arms wrap around me and I snuggle up to him. "I'm sorry for ruining your night," I whisper. He laughs softly and tells me, "You never ruin my night. You make my night by being there." I feel tears in my eyes start to form and begin to fall. "Don't cry Vera," he soothingly tells me while turning me to face him. I lean my forehead against his and he wipes away my tears. I've never had anyone do this for me, I've never had anyone say things like he is. "Why was I not enough? I wanted to just get it over with. Just sleep with someone, because Connor could easily do it when he was with me. It's like I was nothing to him. So why should I keep onto my virginity?" I ask while softly crying in his arms. Fallon places small kisses on my forehead and cheeks while telling me, "Connor was a fool. You're perfect just the way you are. Don't give it up to just anyone Vera, please promise me you won't." I look up into his eyes and promise, "I will. I promise Fallon." Through the dark I see his smile and I snuggle up to him again. "Thanks for being my firefighter," I whisper. "Always," I hear him say before I drift off to sleep. 

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