He Doesn't Know

Five

It's been a week and I haven't talked to Fallon. He hasn't even tried to call or text me. However, Connor keeps popping up when I'm having lunch with Geisel. I making my way onto the field during soccer practice and look into the stands, but I don't see the blonde haired boy I'd hope to find. "Get into a fight? Fallon hasn't showed up in about a week," Sira asks. I look her way and nod while replying, "We kissed and he asked me to be his girlfriend. I just don't want to rush into another relationship when I just got out of one with Connor. I'm still very confused about my feelings for Connor and it doesn't help that I'm going to the concert tomorrow with him. Sira I'm a mess, I find myself actually wanting to see the sarcastic Fallon." She laughs and asks me, "Did you ever think maybe it's because you have feelings for him?" I scrunch my nose at her and say, "I don't want to talk about my feelings on the soccer field. Let's get to it underdog." She shakes her head at me, but doesn't bring the topic back up.

"What are you going to wear? I mean he's taking you out before the concert starts, so keep that in mind"Geisel asks. She's plumped down on her bed next to Dylan. "I don't get girls. I just wear whatever," Dylan comments. Geisel laughs and tells him, "That's because you're a basic frat boy and all your clothes look the same." He wraps his arm around her and kisses her. I smile cheaply at them and turn around to my closet. This past week they've been hanging out a lot and I know she really likes him and I see the way he looks at her. But I don't honestly want to see that lovey dovey stuff right now in my life. I decide to just wear something comfortable, since I'll be standing up for a while and I don't really care to impress Connor. There's a knock on the door and I go to open it. Connor's eyes rake up my body and I feel a blush creeping on my cheeks. I turn my head away from him, since I don't want to make him think I hope something comes out of tonight. "You look so beautiful," Connor tells me. "Thank you. You don't look so bad yourself I guess," I tell him while grabbing my purse to leave. Connor laughs and tells me, "That's the Vera I know and love."

He takes my hand and when in front of the car he opens the door for me. "We're not on a date Connor," I inform him. Once in the car he asks me, "So I can't be a gentleman?" I scuff at that question and reply, "You haven't been like this in over a year, so don't start now." The smile that was on his face is now gone. "Geez Vera not making this night easy are you? That's what I'm trying to do. Not trying to make you want to bite my head off, but I see it's your mission to do so anyway," he asks with clear irritation. I snap back, "Oh I'm sorry I'm just fed up with you trying to act like you haven't treated me like shit for over a year! Well I'm not just going to forget that. But for tonight, just for tonight, I'll drop my remarks ok?" Connor smiles a bit, bringing out only one dimple. I unconsciously reach and put my hand on that cheek. He grabs my hand and tells me, "I'm only trying to start over. You were one of my best friends and it hurts worse that I have lost you as my friend." I take my hand out of his realizing this moment is making me uncomfortable. "I'm starving lets go get something to eat Conn," I tell him. He smiles even bigger and says, "Anything for you."

"Any dessert for you two?" the waitress asks us. I smile and reply, "I'm so stuffed. I'm going to have to decline." Connor nods along. There's loud laughter a couple of tables down from us. "Jeez what could be that funny?" he asks. I laugh and reply, "Oh Connor, maybe your GPA." His face goes serious and I think he's going to get mad, but then he busts out into laughter. "That's a good one Thompson, but I think you pronounced my wrong," he jokes once he stops laughing so hard. I stick my tongue out at him and say, "Oh but I didn't." I look to see who's at the table that's still being loud and I feel my heart drop. Fallon. It's Fallon and his arm is draped around some girl. Connor notices my change in emotion and asks, "What's wrong Vera?" I don't say anything, so he turns around and looks where I can't take my eyes off of. "What the fuck?" he asks. Then to make things worse, I watch as Fallon lock lips with that slut. "Vera look away," Connor tells me while getting in my view of them. It's already too late, because tears are already falling down my face. I knew Fallon didn't care for me and I was stupid to think he did. He was using me to get to Connor, that's why he hasn't tried to contact me.