He Doesn't Know

Twelve

I walk up the stairs to the fraternity house and take a deep breath before walking in. I receive weird looks from some of the guys as I go upstairs to the room I was in this morning. "He was pretty pissed off when he came in," a guy tells me before I reach his door. I look his way and recognize his face, but don't know his name. "That's probably my fault, but I came here to make things right," I tell this stranger. He laughs and smiles at me while saying, "We both know Fallon. If you go in there, things might get bad. He's really mad right now, so let him cool off." I shake my head no then comment, "If I let him sit there angry he's going to think I don't care." Then I open his door, except awkwardly it's locked. I knock and I place my ear against the door, I don't really hear anything. "Leave me the fuck alone!" I jump from his loud voice. "Fallon it's me, please open up," I tell him through the door. That's when I hear movement behind the door and then it unlocks, but he doesn't open it. I slowly open the door and go inside.

 "Fallon I'm so sorry for running away from us. I shouldn't have assumed you'd leave me to just have sex with other girls. I'm so sorry. Please say something, I love you Fallon. You've showed me what it means to be around a good guy that truly loves me," my words come out shaky and tears begin to fall again. "No shit Vera. You make me seem like a bad guy, before I actually do something bad. I've only done good things for you. I don't want to see your face right now. Leave," his tells me with venom in every word he says. My heart falls in my chest and I can't find any words, except a whisper, "Fallon." He finally looks me in the eyes and there's anger behind them, I should have listened to that guy in the hallway. "What are you waiting for? I asked you to leave," he asks rudely. A sob escapes me and I rush out of the room. Luckily no one's in the hallway as I slowly walk towards the stairs. This pain is all on me. I hurt Fallon and ended up hurting myself. He doesn't know how sorry I am.

"Hey there Vera", a guy standing next to the pool table comments. I look his way and glare at him, he's a football player. "Whoa, you look like shit. Did Fallon break your heart? It was bound to happen. I can make you feel better if you like?" he continues to ask. I hear some of the other guys say, "That's not cool man," or "Yeah Jimmy get it." That's right his name is Jimmy. "No leave me alone," I reply while continuing to walk towards the door, but Jimmy gets in my way. "Now don't be like that. You've hurt my feelings Vera," he tells me while stepping closer. I step back to only hit the wall. "Look Jimmy I'm not in the mood right now to argue so just move out of my way," I tell him while not even trying to hide the rudeness. "Leave her alone Jimmy. I swear if you don't back the fuck up from my girlfriend I'll punch the shit out of you," I hear Fallon's voice off to the side. Jimmy steps away and smirks while revealing Fallon behind him. Then just like that Fallon rushes over and takes me into his arms. "I'm so sorry princess. Come upstairs so we can talk," he tells me. I don't move though. I don't understand, he was just yelling at me literally a couple of minutes ago. "I heard you yelling and as your firefighter, I had to come down to you," Fallon softly reassures while smiling. I smash my lips against his and can tell it takes him by surprise, because he's stiff, but then he loosens up and lengthens the kiss. "Okay let's go talk," I finally tell him. He nods and takes my hand to go upstairs.

Once in his room, Fallon goes to his bed and lays down. "Today's not my day," I hear him whisper underneath his breath. Slowly I walk over to the bed and sit on the edge next to him. I feel his hand grab mine and intertwine our fingers together. "I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me," he says out loud. I smile cheaply at him and ask him, "I'm sorry for bringing up the topic that I promised I wouldn't affect us. But Fallon is this how it's going to be? I can't be in this kind of relationship, where we fight all the time and make up right after. I don't want that." He sits up and looks right in my eyes while replying, "No it's not. We're good together and I know getting past this will make it okay again. Vera please don't think like that, because it's like you're giving up on our relationship already. Just like this morning." I frown, because he's right. I'm doing it again. Damn. I'm the one ruining this relationship. 

"No that's not what I want, I love you. I'm sorry. I promise you I'll stop doing that. I put my trust in you. I put my trust in us, but Fallon the next time you make me feel that way, that will be the last of us," I tell him while taking my other hand to run my fingers through his hair. "Vera I promise I won't get that mad," he says and leans slowly closer to me. He smiles at me and with an inch from my lips and his, he sticks his tongue out and traces my lips. I laugh and give him a passionate kiss. Just like that I'm in his arms and he flips me down onto the bed and hovers over me. "I love you Vera. Fuck. I love saying that. I love you Vera. You're mine and I'll never get over that fact. You're finally mine," Fallon whispers while placing kisses down my neck and face. I laugh and tell him, "And I love you Fallon. I love that I've finally found someone who's right for me. All along it was supposed to be you and I finally have you." He looks me in the eyes and kisses my lips, losing myself in him in this moment.

The ringtone on my phone goes off and makes me jump. Fallon laughs and reaches for it, to only frown when looking at the caller ID. "It's Connor," he tells me with uneasiness. I sit up quickly and take my phone. "What the fuck?" I ask out loud. The music keeps playing then I finally answer his call. "Hello?" I ask. "Is this Vera Thompson?" a woman's voice asks. What is going on? "Yes? What's wrong?" I reply with a question. "You're the emergency contact number in Connor's phone. I'm very sorry to be the one to inform you, but Connor was found badly beaten and left outside," the woman replies. Everything feels like it comes to a stop in this exact moment I hear her words. "Where is he?" I ask right away. Fallon gives me a confused look, but I ignore it to get my shoes on and grab my purse to leave. I quickly write down the hospital name and the address. I place my phone in my pocket and look over to Fallon. "Connor's in really bad condition, I'm going to go see him and call his parents. Do you want to come?" I ask him. Fallon looks away from me, like he's thinking it over. "Well I'm not going to let you fucking go there to him alone," are the words that finally come out of his mouth. I leave at this and feel his hand tighten around mine.