Uncoventional And Disturbing (ThomAra)

UAD 13: Over me

A/N: Kapagod maging thmr fan 😥😅 Jk.

Thom.

Pinilit kong buksan ang mata ko kahit na sobra sobra ang sinag ng ilaw. May nakita naman akong pigura ng babae sa harap ko.

"B? Arra?"

"Nako Je mukhang naalog na ata ulo ng bro mo, B daw e ang layo layo naman ng mukha ni Ara sa nobya niya." panenermon ng isang matangkad na babae..Mika? If that's Mika then the girl I saw first was Ara?

"Wag na kaseng maghanap pa ng wala dito, Thom." She showed of a bracey grin. Siya nga.

"Bakit kayo nga pala ang nandito? Where is Mama, Kuya, Yel and Kat?"

"Oh you dont remember?" Je.

"You made them go away after the surgery. You told them lost of hurtful things. Sabi naman ng doctor it is a side effect of anesthesia, it reaches down to the darkest secrets and thoughts in your brain." Ara.

"Wow. Kelan ka pa nag med student, Ars?" Mika.

"Shunga. Common knowledge yan no."

"Pero bro, you made your family promise kase na they wont visit you here. Kaya kahit umiiyak mom mo nun, pumayag siya--"

"...and dahil diyan walang magbabantay sayo dito sa hosp dahil bukod sa clinical chem subjects ng iyong girlfriend, exam week rin naming mga tropapiz mo ngayon. "

"Miks ang harsh mo naman kay Thom. Kita mo nga na may cast na yung left foot niya, may benda ang right hand tas tadtad ng bruises ang mukha tapos nakuha mo pang asarin?"

"Okay fine, I'm sorry. But Arra dropped by nung tulog ka pa and she asked us a favor to watch over you, sobrang hell week to for her because of your little escapade sa Daraitan, hindi siya nakapagreview ng Anal at Organic Chem notes niya, dagdag rin ang extra load niya sa Clinical Chem. Ako naman at si Je may exams sa minor subjects namin tapos training for UAAP tsaka may Protein drink shake tour rin kami bilang endorsement."

Dang this injury. Padagdag pasakit sa hellweek.

"Ako. I could watch over him. Exempted na ako from my exams eh."
Ara.

Nakita ko namang pinasaringan ng tingin ni Mika si Ara at nagbulongan rin sila, I could tell na Ara won the argument because Mika looked pissed.

"Settled na, girls? Ara will watch over you here pag after training niya. Timing rin kase Thom na all professors sa Business Management department ay nagattend ng seminar sa Davao. Kaya naging Thesis making time na lang to for the fair pagbalik nila."

"Pair pala tayo dun, Thom." mabilis namang tinapakan ni Mika ang paa ni Ara at napakagat lamang ng kanyang bibig si Ara.

What the freaking hell is happening? Bakit parang may galit si Mika sa'kin?

"Sige na, Thom. Mauna na kami ni Je. Galingan mo diyan sa pagbantay, Ara."

Silence.

Umalis na agad si Mika at Je kaya naiwanan kami dito ni Ara. How awkward can this situation be?

"May text ka galing kay Arra." sabi niya sabay abot ng cellphone.

"B!!! I aced blood banking!! Omg!! How are you na pala? I'll drop by later. See you." I smiled at the thought of seeing her again. Binaba ko na ang phone at sinubukang magkaroon ng decent convo with Ara

"Uh...A-about sa ano pala yung thesis natin Ars?"

"Entrep."

"Sinong prof?"

"Magadia."

Silence.

"May product ka na bang naisip?"

"Local delicacies."

Silence.

"May problema ba tayo Ara?"

"Wala"

"Galit ka ba?"

"Hindi."

"Then why am I receiving a cold treatment?"

"Because you deserve it."

I was taken aback. Deserve ko nga bang maramdaman to?

"No..No its not you, Thom. Sorry for that. Ako. Ako yung may mali ngayon." she heaved a sigh. "Ako yung hindi makatanggap sa sitwasyon."

"Please explain it to me Ars. Mababaliw na ako kakaisip ng rason kung bakit susungitan mo lang ako in a split second!"

"Boys and their nonchalance."

"I don't understand you."

"You never will, Thom." she let out a bitter smile "I'm stuck in a situation where I should be happy with you seeing someone else. Kailangan kong tanggapin. Kailangang idigest ng sistema, because there's nothing I could do about it! Tangina. Kahit kelan, alam ko. Boys like you won't even dare second glance on girls like me, diba? Kahit kelan hindi mo icoconsider ang feelings ng isang tulad ko!"

Ganun na ba talaga kababa ang tingin niya sakin? That looks would be my preference for love?

"You're wrong, Ara." I tried to reach for her face pero winakli niya lang ang kamay ko. "I don't know if what I feel is love for you, but I'm sure that I'm enchanted with you."

"Well that's bullshit, Thom! Tingin mo sakin hindi makatanggap ng rejection? God, Thom! Don't mistake love for the happiness you get from being with me! If you don't love me, tatanggapin ko. I'm not that shallow to hate for a simple rejection that I knew would happen in the future! I love you but I'm not going to let you use me dahil lang wala sa tabi mo ang girlfriend mo. Hindi ako ang mali Thom, eto! Eto ang mali! You have a girlfriend na mahal na mahal ka. You need not to force yourself into loving me."

I was silent. Did I really use her?

"I'm going to sort out my thoughts, balik lang ako mamaya. This thing--this bullshit profession of love from yours never happened. Geddit?"

And she left the room without another word

taking half of my heart with her