*this is all true
No one gets the pain that I go through no one gets how miserable I am
no one knows that every time I look in the mirror I think why am I even here
but then I get to school and I see your face you're happy, loving face.
You are my best friend and I'm glad you are
but when you call me a bitch or a worse name behind my back
and you don't think it'll get back to me I just ...
you're my best friend you're the only one I open up to
why. why would you do this but anyway that's all in the past this is the present
I know you're joking when you say I hate you
and I joke back by saying "no you love me"
And then my other friend turns around and says no she really hate you
I don't know if you're joking or actually being serious
because in the past when my best friend called me a bitch or a worse name
All my insecurities I bottled up inside me where out and it's hard to put them back in
so now I'm on the fence not knowing if it's true or if it's false I hope it's false
You're my best friend and I tell you everything even the pain I go through
at night when I cry myself sleep or just wish I was dead
but I'm here because of you
you keep me here but when you're joking sometimes
It really hurts when my best friends team up on me to pick on me and I know you're joking
but a lot of the time I go home crying and not knowing
if I can make it to tomorrow but then I remembered you
were always there to help me and I wish you knew how bad it was how
bad the pain is but you don't you're just my best friend and you've
been nothing more because you can't help me no one can help me so
thank you for being my best friend but the pain I go through when you
call me names in the middle class and say I hate you and my other friend
teams up on me and says no she really hate you
I don't know how to feel I don't know what to do
I want to do is cry and die no one knows what the pain I go through feels like
and no one will ever know my friend say they get it
but the truth is they don't because
no one knows
the pain I go through
