The Bright Side

7

Songs for this chapter:

"Through the Dark -One Direction"

"All I Want -Kodaline"

Enjoy!
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She's a liar..
She smiles all the time and tries to fill the void inside..
She is passing in a period of severe fatigue and she's all by her own..
She consoles everyone and no one does to her ..
She advices everyone and no one advices her..
She says she's fine, only feeling bored..
Even when she cries, she never talks what she's feeling inside..
She just says 'nothing'..
She is so secretive and discreet..
That's why there's a raging storm inside her that no one can feel it..
She's in pain..
She's me.

Ever since Ray has gone, nothing seems the same. Yeah, I know my life wasn't all about her, I just can't help that feeling inside.. It is driving me crazy.. I have the right to be pessimistic 'cause she was the only constant in my life..and she's gone.

It's been a month since that awful day.. I am always locked in my room, reading the Harry Potter series over and over again.. Or watching The Vow and Soul Surfer.. Uh and writing songs all the time.. I thought that music will help, but nahh nothing is helping.

I've been so distant from Sam and my parents. I don't know why, I just think I have to be alone for a while. And believe me if I stay like this, I'll end up in a house full of thousands of cats.

Ray calls me everyday. She tells me about the 'stupid boy' in her class whose name is Calum. And yeah I know that they will end up together. She says she hates him and those dramatic words but I know better than her. Our relationship hasn't changed and I'm so glad..

Other than being depressed over Ray, I feel really weak. In example, my bones are aching me to death and I lost about 7 pounds this month. And let me tell you about those stupid circles around my eyes and my bad grades.

Today I have exams and Sam is sure waiting me downstairs. I'm so glad he is accepting my 'distance'. He isn't pushing and I can't be more happy. Maybe today will be different and I'll do something 'fun'.

"Morning lollipop." He greets me with a smile and I smile at the word 'lollipop'.

"Morning cupcake." I reply with a peck on his lips.

"Well, since you aren't in one of 'your moods' today, can we go out or something?" He asks me.

"Yeah sure.. Let's finish those tests and we'll do whatever you want. I'm just afraid I won't pass." I put my hand on my forehead due to frustration.

"You'll be fine." He puts his hand on the small of my back and I shiver at the touch. This always calms me down and he knows it.

The day at school is fine and I'm waiting for that damn bell to ring, informing us to start our exam.

Finally, after 5 minutes it rings. I look at the first page and I am on cloud nine. I may just explode with happiness.

Two days ago I started singing through the phone the same answers for those questions. Ray made me study with her through the phone and now I might give her a hug that makes her forget herself, and me.

I start writing furiously and Professor Damon notices. He gives me his sweetest smile and I smile back.

So let's say that the day went perfectly well and I'm ready for having some fun, away from 'Moody Amy'.

I tell Sam how happy I am and he hugs me. I swear he hugged me just to make me shut the hell up. But I'm okay with that.

"Where do you want to go?" He asks me as he opens the door to the passenger's seat for me to get in. Oh what a gentleman..