The Bright Side

13

Songs for this chapter:

"Someone Like You -Adele"

"Don't You Remember -Adele"

Enjoy!
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Promises are the most important sentences a man can say and make. They are usually said to prove for your beloved ones that you love and care about them. However, the problem isn't in promising.. it's about fulfilling your promise in real life, not just saying them when you are happy.

Sam, who used to promise me everyday that he'll never leave me, is one of those who betrayed me. Usually, when you feel sick, your friends try to cheer you up.. They try to make their best in order to make you happy or to make you smile. What I'm trying to say is that Sam has never been my actual friend, nor my boyfriend; for that friends will never leave you.

The point is, you shouldn't make promises you aren't capable of, for that you can't know what the consequences are. Even my father couldn't fulfill his promise! I'm really thankful that my father is the one who left me first, because I knew right then that even your own blood and flesh will leave you. My father made it clear that he doesn't want me.. but believe me, I still love him like crazy. Yes, it makes me angry sometimes but I can't deny that he is still my dad. The awful thing is that he knew about my situation and he didn't bother to come or call.

Right now, I'm sitting on that bench, consumed in my own thoughts, and waiting for my mother to come.. Today I'll be doing the chemotherapy. I can't believe that I'm going to lose my hair in three weeks from now. Will this thing hurt? Is it going to make me look weak and ugly? You know what, I prefer to be thinking about the betrayal, than this. Thinking about it will make me look crazy and stupid. I should have googled this cancer thing.

"Hello honey." My mother's voice echo in my mind and I'm thankful that she got me back to reality.

"Hello." I reply in a soft voice and she looks at me with sad eyes.

"I'll be entering with you to that room. Also, Ray is outside waiting and asking me if she can come too. "

"Yeah sure." I reply and she gives me a small smile.

"Don't be afraid. Today you won't feel anything.. They will put a stupid needle and you just wait."

I guess what she is trying to say is that tomorrow will be a long, long day.

"I'm just worried about the hair thing." I laugh nervously and she breaks eye contact.

"Do not think about that. Think about your health and everything will be fine." When I don't reply she continues. "Believe me baby, blood cancer is so hard but it can be cured, unlike other types.."

She's right. I should just pray and everything will be okay. Overthinking is going to ruin me. Anyway, with the way Ray is looking at me, I guess this day isn't going to be any better. Maybe she should stay outside till I finish that thing.

"Ray.. Don't look at me with those puppy eyes. I'll be fine and you can stay out here."

"Sorry Amy I just feel bad that I was away all this time." She tells me and a smile makes it way on my face.

"It's okay." I assure her and doctor Daniel comes out of a room. I still can't believe that he is a doctor. I should ask him soon.

"Ready?" He asks me and I nod.

"I was born ready." I reply in a sarcastic tone and he smiles. I should ask him to stay with me 'cause with this beautiful smile, I can handle any type of pain. Stop it Amelia!!