The Bright Side

4

Song for this chapter:

"Time After Time -Cyndi Lauper"

Enjoy!
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"Today was the worst day ever!" I tell Ray.

I was still confused about what happened last night. Ray wasn't feeling good and my classes were shitty. And Sam, well, I felt like he was avoiding me..

"Amelia, I have to talk to you about something important. Please don't be mad at me." Ray tells me and I nod.

I am really worried. When Ray talks like this, it means that I should be extremely worried..

"Spill." I say.

We walk to my home and she starts playing with her hair. A nervous habit.

"Ray please tell me."

"Amy I'm so sorry but my dad wants us to leave with him." She replies.

"Why? And when?"

"He has a business deal and we should go with him. I already applied to a university there."

"You mean you're going there permanently?" No this can't happen.

She nods..

"Why do you have to go with him? You can stay at my place Ray.. We can go shopping everyday and make everything you love to do. Please." I tell her immediately. She's my bestfriend she can't go. No.

"Amy, please understand. I just can't." She tells me, tears forming in her eyes. Mine are already on my cheeks..

"Okay I won't freak out. Where are you going?"

She stays silent for few minutes.

"China." She replies.

"What!!!! You are going to the other side of the world Ray!" Now I should be freaking out! Like what the actual fuck? She can't do this.

"I'm so sorry Amelia. Please understand. I swear I'll call every day, every night and every fucking minute."

"I do understand Ray but I need you. This is your home, it's where you belong."

"Amy I know that. I know that leaving you is like leaving my heart but family is my priority. It's everyone's priority."

Well she has a logical point, but still.

"When are you.. going?" I ask her and she starts playing with her hair. Again. I won't take her answer very well, I'm sure.

"In 10 days." I start laughing. I don't know why but this is completely ironic. God! I'm going insane.

"Thank you Ray." I tell her sarcastically. Tears not falling anymore.

"For what?"

"You should've told me before.. At least we could've spent more time together. But now thanks to your stupid mind we can't spend a single minute."

"Amy I love you. I swear this is not up to me. I wish I had a choice, I'm so sorry." She tells me. I can see it in her eyes that she is really sorry..

She hugs me tightly and starts crying on my shoulder.

"I swear I'll visit whenever I can." She whispers.

"You better come."

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When you overthink things, you'll always be in the dark. Your mind won't function well, and your body will feel weak.

That is my state right now. I've been overthinking all my life. Now I feel fragile. I didn't sleep well for a long time.

I don't know what is happening with me. Yeah I am sure that overthinking is the cause behind my state now. But.. My body isn't 'well'. My bones yesterday were aching.. A lot.