an open letter to kim from me. but in cyd's pov :")
" oh how i wish, that it was me. "
i wish by one direction
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" because you deserve to be happy, even though it's not with me. "
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CYD
May 22, 2016.
Dear Kim,
Hi, Kim! Musta na? Ang random naman ata noh, na gagawa ako ng letter for you, kahit kaya naman kitang kausapin in person. Haha, well, ganyan talaga. Hindi lahat ng gusto natin, pwede mangyari.
I'm writing this because I'm going to Cebu soon and I'm still not ready to say these things in person. By the time you get this, which would be three days from now, I would be in my plane by then, heading back to Cebu.
Hehe, so basically, goodbye note? But we'll see each other again. May PSL pa tayo. But not like before.
I heard na kayo na ni Tin. I heard It from Mika, while she was telling her how happy she was. Kaya pala recently, di na tayo nag kakasama! Charot lang.
Anyways, Kimmy! Grabe, sa wakas you've moved on. Sa wakas, you found the happiness you deserve. Sa wakas, you'll feel how to love again. I'm so happy for you. I really am. By the time you read this, maybe naannounce mo na sa amin na official na kayo ni Tin, but gusto lang kita unahan haha.
But, Kim, I ask you this. Is it selfish of me to wish that I was her? Is it to cruel of me to wish na sana tayo na lang? Is it so unfair of me to wish that I would be the one to call you mine?
I wish na sabihin mo na hindi, kasi Kim. I wish I was her.
Oh, how I wish that I would be the one to make your heart go crazy. I wish it was me who would make you miss someone's touch. I wish it would be me who can hold you in their arms. I wish that I was the one you love. I wish it was me.
Kim, I'm deeply inlove with you. With every piece of you. With every heartbeat of you.
I love the way you smile. I love the way you laugh. I love the way you stutter. I love the way you move. I love the way you breathe. I love the way you talk. I love you.
I love the fact that I could always talk to you. I love the way you look at me like I'm special. I love the way you say my name. I love the way you hold my hand.
I love every moment to you. Every moment that is everything to me, but nothing to you.
Kim, how do I unlove you?
I hate you because you make me go crazy. I hate you because you make my heart go wild. I hate how your touch feels because you feel like home. I hate how you smile at me and I feel like I'm special. I hate how you hold my hand and I never wanna let go.
I hate how all my love means nothing to you.
Kim, how do I make you love me?
Kim, I hope you know how much it hurts loving you. Kung gaano masakit kasi alam ko hanggang dito lang. Kung gaano kasakit na makita kang masaya sa iba. Kung gaano kasakit na magmahal mg isang Kim Fajardo.
I also hope you know how lucky I am to love someone like you. How lucky I am to know someone like you. How lucky I am to fall inlove sa isang Kim Fajardo.
I hate that I love you.
Kim, I don't know. I don't know. I don't know.
But now, I do. I know now because I see the way you look at her. I see the way you smile at her. I see the way your eyes shine with her.
I see myself in you when you're with her.
I know now because that's how I look at you.
I know now that you're happy.
I know now that you deserve this.
Kim, I am beyond happy that you found someone to fall in love with each and every day. I am happy because you've finally opened your heart. I am happy, because you are happy.
I hope she doesn't hurt you. Kasi baka maspike ko siya. I hope she makes you feel loved. I hope she talks about you like you're her everything. I hope she doesn't let you go. I hope she loves you. I hope she makes you happy each and every day.
I hope she makes you feel what you make me feel.
Happy. At Peace. In love. Satisifed. Home.
Kim, you deserve every bit of happiness in this world. Every bit of love this world has to offer.
So, I'm letting you go.
But how do you let go of someone who wasn't even yours to begin with?
Kim, I'm letting go of my feelings for you para every time I see you with her, all I would feel would be happiness and not jelousy. Because you don't deserve that. I would be unfair to you.
I'm letting go of this part of me na umaasa, kasi I know, I might ruin everything. And you don't deserve that.
Oo, masakit. Oo, tagos sa puso. Pero mahal kita.
And I hope you know that every time the sun rises, every time the dawn breaks and every time the lights go out, I still love you.
I'll always love you, Kim.
But I'll put your happiness first. Before mine. Because you mean so much to me.
Don't forget to always make her smile, to always tell the world she's yours. Don't forget to wipe her tears away. Don't forget to tell her you love her. And, don't forget to fall in love with her each and every day.
It was such an honor to love you, Kim Fajardo.
We're just the same.
We're just alike.
Both inlove.
Me with you,
And you with her.
But, as they say, if happy is her, then I'm happy for you.
Love, Cyd.
