" stars will guide you home. "
all of the stars by ed sheeran
(enjoy)
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KIM
Stars are a symbol of light through the darkest hours. Maybe that's why they made that up.
Kim has nightmares. It can't stop. And when she has these, she calls her up that makes her understand that Kim needs her in her arms. And she says this one, tiny, word that makes her go home to Kim's arms.
Stars.
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Kim woke up sweating and panting. She was having a hard time to recover and she was just trying to catch her breath. This was her first nightmare after a month. She thought it has stopped. She thought everything stopped. But it didn't.
Kim was shaking, and she was scared. She could look anywhere else but at the blank wall in front of her. Gulping, she reached out towards the lamp table beside her bed and brought the glass of water up to her lips and took a sip.
It was cold, just like how the night was. How her mind was. Kim was shaking her head, over and over, telling herself that everything would be alright. That it's just a dream. It's not real. She took deep, small breaths before crawling back under the covers and closed her eyes.
But it was no good.
She couldn't sleep. The thought of her nightmares were eating her up and destroying her mind. It was five minutes 'til 11 and she couldn't go to slumber. Usually, at times like these, she would call her up and she would immediately answer and go to Kim's house and just lie next to Kim on her bed 'til the sun comes out.
But it seemed like the sun came out too soon because she left Kim. And it would be weird to call up your ex in the middle of the night and ask her to come over because of some bad dreams right?
No, she couldn't call her. She wouldn't come. They haven't talked for a month and it sure as hell would be impossible to get her to come here. So Kim shook her head, convincing herself that she was okay. That she can get through this. Without her.
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11:30
Kim was still awake, she was staring at the ceiling and tears were running down her face. Hell, she couldn't bear sleeping anymore. She can't even get out of bed. She needed her. She badly needed her.
Fuck it, she thought. Fuck the awkwardness that might happen, fuck the small chance of her coming her. She grabbed her phone from the lamp table and immediately pressed the speed dial button because her number would always be on speed dial. She still hasn't changed it.
Kim took a deep breath when she heard the rings. One, two, three, four rings have passed and she still hasn't picked up. Baka tulog, Kim thought. And was about to give when the sixth ring came but a voice that meant everything to her answered.
" Kim? "
Her name still sounded so beautiful when it comes out of her lips. Kim took a deep breath and closed her eyes. She remembers nights like this. She wants to remember it again.
" Kim, anong oras na. Bakit ka ba tumatawag? "
Her voice was sleepy yet so beautiful and Kim hated the fact that she still loves her. And Kim hated the fact that she was so pathetic that she needed to call up on her ex just because of nightmares. Kim hated the fact that she still needs her.
