Will He Ever Be Mine?

Chapter Four

"I love you too, but can you slide over a little. Its still hot." I whispered and he looked at me and I laughed. "Well fine then, I see how it is." He said moving away from me.

"Don't be like that. It's just hot in here and my mom doesn't believe in turning on the air conditioner." I said and he laughed because he knew I was right.

One day he turned it on and when she walked in the house she went off on him. He almost cried because not even his mom yelled at him like that. My mom apologized though and he knew not to try her ever again.

"I'll open the window." He said and slid back in bed when he did. "Thank you but it's still hot so keep your distance." I said with a laugh and he sucked his teeth.

My eyes started to roam in the darkness. Now that Michael is back, what will I do? I mean I think I love him, but I really love- like Bryce.

I chewed on my bottom lip and looked over at Michael. His eyes were closed and his breathing began to even out letting me know that he was almost asleep.

When Michael "died" Bryce was right there. Honestly, Bryce has been in my life since we were in elementary school. We went to the same church as well. Our mom's had knew each other for many years because they worked together at a daycare before my mom started to work in the health clinic. Now it seems like most of my feelings for Michael are back. My heart is being pulled into two different directions right now and I really don't think I like it.

Jesus please give me sign on the direction I need to go in. I mean Bry has Yasmine. I know she cheats on him but he is oblivious to it and acts like she's the best thing since Chocolate. Maybe it's best I stay with Michael?

They say if you ever love someone but fall in love with someone else, you should be with the second person because if you really loved the first person, you wouldn't have fallen in love with someone else. But I really think my situation is different. I say that because Bryce was there for comfort. Maybe I was just very vulnerable and he was just right there.

I'm not even really sure if Michael even dated someone else while he was gone. I felt my heart drop at that thought. I mean he's a guy and they have needs too.

The bedroom was filled with his light snores while all these questions kept going around and around in my head.

I honestly don't know what to do. I'm 16 years old and people might think oh you're young, you don't know what love is. Or you're trying to move too fast with your life. But that's not true in my case. I can't help how or what I feel for a person. Have you ever heard Young Love by Chris Brown? I swear the chorus describes the way I feel. Society thinks everything they believe is correct, but it's not always right. Society is so judgemental that it kind of irritates me.

My head begins to hurt so I turn to my side with my back facing Michael and try to sleep. Hopefully my mind will be clear in the morning and I'll have a good day tomorrow.
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