Crybaby

Soap

I just can't keep to keep it in my Mouth

I'm in love with my Older brothers best friend

The only problem is that my brother is 20 and so is his friend

I'm 16 ya I think you got my problem

But every time I'm near Lucas my brothers best friend

My mouth slips up

It's like I have no filter around him

Today he is coming over

I got ready and I'm watching tv on the couch

I finally hear the door bell ring

"It's open"

I yelled

He walks in wearing a white t-shirt that shows his toned abs

And jeans

I'm drooling but I quickly look back at the screen hoping he didn't catch me

"Hey Maya, where's Zack"

Zack is my older brother

"Oh um he's not here right now but he's coming home soon" I told him while trying not to look at his emerald green eyes

"Mind if I hang out with you for a bit"

"Sure"

What's the harm in that huh just me and the guy I've been in love with since the 7th grade watching Netflix

Oh goodie

"So um how's school"

He asks

"School is good, how is work"

"Work is okay"

"Are you still seeing that red head girl her name was-"

"Laylah Yes um no we broke up a couple weeks ago"

Finally I never liked that girl anyway

"That's good"

I then realized what I just said

Shit

I looked at him he had an amused expression

"No I d-didn't M-Mean it like that I just meant its good your single"

That's even worse

"Not that I want you to be single I like guys that are taken-nooooo you know what I'm just gonna keep watching TV"

He starts laughing

"I think it's cute that you ramble off like that"

My cheeks turn red

I think your cute

"Thanks"

He says

OH No I did not just say that out loud

"Yes you kinda did but its cool"

Ughhhhhh

"So ummm"

I started off

Great now it's awkward between us

I might've well wash my mouth with soap if I'm gonna keep screwing up

"Why soap tastes nasty"

"UGH I have to stop with my bad habit of thinking put loud if you excuse me I'm just gonna wash my mouth out with soap"

I got up and went to the bathroom

How can this get any worse

I feel it coming out my throat

Guess I better wash my mouth out with soap

God I wish I never spoke

Now I gotta wash my mouth out with soap