Mine, Always

Chapter Twenty Three

I unlock the front door let us in and relock it then I head upstairs hand in hand with Zach.

"Do you want to shower? I mean I'm pretty sure I smell like a brewery and I've not even had a drink." I say kicking my vans off and pulling my socks off.

"Er well yeah I have food in my hair," Zach laughs and he sounds nervous.

"Ok well do you want to shower together or separately I ask?" As I take my shirt and jeans off.

"I - Tom what are you doing?" He asks suddenly and I stop with my thumbs in the waist band of my boxers.

"Getting undressed?" I question suddenly embarrassed.

"I can see that, I mean what do you want Tom - I - do you want to shower together?" He asks still fully dressed. I feel like an idiot and I panic, I don't know why I assumed he'd want to shower with me. God I'm so stupid. I go red with embarrassment, I turn around and as I head to the bathroom I reply.

"It's fine, I'll shower alone Zach," I say and am surprised when my voice doesn't crack.

I close the bathroom door and turn the shower to hot; I yank my boxers off and am under the water in seconds. I can feel the tension in my shoulders and I wish I could go for a run or down into the garage for a punching bag session. I'm in my own little bubble of self-disappointment so it's no wonder I don't hear the door to the bathroom open it's only it closing that I actually hear and I freeze.

"Zach?" I ask stupidly like it's going to be anyone else, I guess I've watched far too many horror films.

"Of course it's me, this isn't a horror movie," he laughs and I think it's kinda cute he knows what I'm thinking.

"Are you ok? I think maybe we've had a misunderstanding," he says joining me in the shower in all his naked glory.

"Oh?" I question audibly gulping he looks bloody gorgeous naked let me tell you.

"I didn't want to not shower with you Tom, I just wasn't sure I should." He says leaning closer to me slightly and parts of my body have definitely started paying attention.

"Oh?" I question again moving so my backs against the wall and he can share the shower spray.

"You're not very talkative Tom," he says and I snort - like actually snort.

"Of course I'm not we're both naked in the shower, it's hard to concentrate on forming words," I say honestly wondering if he's trying to kill me.

He watches me for a few seconds and I try and steady my breathing but it's not working, I need him to touch me so much it hurts. "Please," I moan and I don't care how needy I sound I'm so turned on right now I'm not even sure it's possible.

He kisses me softly and slowly, it's torture as his lips roam slowly over mine, I run my tongue along his bottom lip hoping to entice his out to play but he isn't willing and it's frustrating beyond belief.

"Are you trying to kill me?" I ask him more snappily than the mood needs.

"No babe, just I -" he starts but then stops as my hands start wandering down his body.

"What Zach? Why won't you let go?" I say seeing the control he's got over himself and I hate it, I want him to loss control, I need him too.

"I'm afraid, I've never done anything like this before Tom, if I let go and you need me to stop I don't know I'll be able to," he says and he sounds ashamed by his honesty.

"Well it's lucky for you that I shower with hot guys all the time," I say sarcastically and he visibly relaxes as he laughs which was my aim.

"Ok, I'll let go for you babe, are you sure you want this?" He asks kissing my neck.

"Yes, yes I want this, I want you," I say and then his lips have captured mine and his body is crushing mine against the wall, the instant our erections touch I feel the tell-tale sign of my impending release and I cry out ecstasy.

"Babe, I'm going to come - I can't oh-" I hear Zach mumbling but I'm lost, I'm gone, I'm riding my orgasm and there's no way I can form words.