Children // Faya

Chapter 21: Need A Break

Ugh I know I've been gone it's because I lost my password and I wasn't sure what email I used for it but I found it and I'm back, not sure for how long. I hope my chapters are still good.

Still 13 Weeks

Maya

Shawn got up to go talk to someone who had knocked at the door. I was just about done with all the drama for today. I needed to breathe. I needed to be alone.

I opened the window and climbed out. I left it open so they would know where I went. I hope they would understand.

I started walking around. There was almost no one outside because it was Christmas. It being Christmas, I should've worn something warmer. I wasn't thinking about it at that time though.

I went over to my house and pried my window open. I climbed inside and started trying to make myself warm. I pulled my phone out of my pocket and saw I had missed calls that I didn't hear. I had two from my mom, two from Riley, three from Shawn, and one from Farkle.

I called Farkle back.

"Hey, Maya?" Farkle sounded a bit out of breath.

"Hey.. h-how's it going?" My voice shook because of how cold I was.

"Where are you? Riley called me because she was scared something happened to you. They said you just were gone." He was panicking over me?

"I'm fine." I say, or at least I'll be fine.

"Well you can't just walk out without telling someone where you're going. You or the baby could be hurt."

For some odd reason, my breath hitches once he said that. It hit me how much he really cared about both the baby and I. I mean I knew before but now, I guess it sunk in.

"I- oh.." I couldn't get any words out really. I was speechless.

"Are you alright?" My loss of words made him worried I guess.

"Um, yeah. Sorry. I just.. Never mind." I dismiss my thoughts. "I just want you to know that I'm fine and someplace warm. I just needed to get a moment to myself. If you could pass the message along that'd be great."

"Okay, if you want to talk once you've had time to yourself then I'm all ears." Farkle says in reply. I love how he can understand sometimes.

"Thank you Farkle, I love you." A smirk appears on my face.

"Love you both." I hear the phone call end, leaving me with a bigger smile. But it didn't last.

Josh was really the father. This was so messed up. Josh is Cory's brother. So it will be his nephew. That means it's Riley's cousin. That's so not right!

I became instantly worried about this. We're people going to judge me for this? Would the Matthews' choose me over one of their relatives? This was not good. This was terrible.

What if Josh panics and starts telling them lies? What if they believe it? This is so flipping bad!

... What if he's lying to himself?

What if I'm lying to myself?

What if I gave consent while drugged and he went with it? What if I imagined it all in my mind the way I put it. What if the guy who came into my apartment wasn't even Josh?

What is real.

I raised my hand to my head and became dizzy. I felt like I could've passed out at any instant, but I didn't.

I watched my phone screen continue to light up with calls. I ignored all of them and started to call Farkle back. Then when I thought back to everything, I ended it in an instant.

Who was to be trusted now? Who knew the truth and who knew lies? What did I know?

Could someone please tell me the truth?