I Need To Be Loved (Ricky Horror Fan Fic) [Book #1]

All The Changes In My Life

The next day I was walking around looking at some of the other band’s merchandise. There were a few bands that I liked and wanted to see what t-shirts they had. While I had a hard  time finding the merch tents I wanted, I easily spotted Ricky. He was sitting in a field scribbling something in a notebook. Every so often he would look up at the sky as if waiting for inspiration. He looked kind of... well, cute. I smiled and made my way over to him. I was finding myself slowly letting him into my life. I didn’t know if I should be ok with it or not either. To be honest, I was a bit confused about everything. I wasn’t sure if I liked him or if I even wanted to like him.

“Hey,” I greeted sitting down in the grass next to him. I pulled my legs to my chest. He looked over at me and a large smile appeared on his face. He pushed some of his black hair out of his face and started to shut his notebook. “Whatcha writing?” I questioned curiously. I expected him to be writing a song.

“Something for my Tumblr,” he replied vaguely. He pushed the notebook off his lap and turned his body to look at me. He pulled out a cigarette from his pocket and lit it. “Want one?” he asked holding the pack out to me. I took one gratefully and borrowed his lighter. As I took my first drag, I felt myself become a lot calmer.

“You ever just look up at the sky and clouds and stuff?” he asked suddenly. Before I could answer, he laid back in the grass and put his hands behind his head. I gave him a confused look as he smile up at me. The light was hitting his face perfectly so that his face just look... beautiful. He gestured for me to lay down next to him and I did what he wanted.

“When I was younger, my sister and I used to spend hours in our backyard in the summer just looking up at the sky and trying to figure out what the clouds looked like,” he reminisced. He smiled and seemed to be thinking about his childhood. I had a hard time imagining Ricky as a child, though.

We laid in silence for a minute just looking up at the the perfectly blue sky. “That one kinda looks like a rabbit,” I said pointing up to one of the fluffy clouds. I felt so relaxed right then. There was something about Ricky that made me feel like I had known him my whole life when in reality I had known him for three days.

“Yeah, it kinds does. That one looked like a plane,” he replied looking over at me with those beautiful eyes and pointing up at the sky. Right then, I wasn’t feeling confused about my feelings for him. All I wanted to do was kiss him. My heart was telling me that I wanted to be with him and for a moment I forgot about what my head was telling me.

I was about to reply when a pair of black shoes crunched on the grass next to me. I looked up to see Jeremy. “We’re on in ten minutes,” he told me trying to sound stern, but a smile danced on his lips.

“Sorry, I didn’t realize what time it was,” I apologized. Almost missing our sets seemed to be a theme with me on this tour. Ricky and I both stood up and wiped some stray blades of grass off our backs. We then followed Jeremy to the stage and I began to warmup. I was kind of surprised that Ricky was going to watch us play again, but I didn’t protest.

After thirty minutes of attempting to block Ricky out of my mind, we ran off stage. I had to say we played a pretty goo show that day. I grabbed the water bottle I had left in the backstage area and I noticed Devin was talking to Ricky. I mentally groaned knowing this was not going to be good. My friends could be quite overprotective. I think it was just because I was the only girl, but to be honest I could probably kick someone’s ass just as well as they could,

“Hey, guys,” I greeted as I approached them. I took a big gulp of water before looking at them. I wasn’t exactly sire what they had been talking about and I wasn’t sire I wanted to know.

“Hey, Midnight. You guys were great as usual,” Devin told me causing me to turn red. I got embarrassed pretty easily to say the least, which Devin knew.

“Thanks,” I mumbled shoving my drumsticks in my back pocket. We stood in silence until Ricky’s phone went off.

“Oh, shit. I’m suppose to be at our tent for a signing. I’ll catch you guys later,” he told us before practically dashing in the direction of Motionless’ merch tent.

As soon as Ricky was out of sight, a huge smile appeared on Devin’s face. “What?” I questioned busying myself with some of our equipment. I couldn’t help but smile back. Smiles like the one Devin was currently wearing were contagious.

“It’s so obvious he likes,” he replied stilling grinning like a madman. Ricky did NOT like me. There was no way anyone could ever like me. At least not in the way he meant.

“Yeah, we’re pretty good friends,” I responded playing dumb. I really just wanted to see if he would correct me. I kept telling myself there as no way Ricky could like me.

“You know what I meant asshole,” he retorted shoving me playfully. There was no  way I could believe what he said. Even if I witnessed Ricky saying it himself, I probably still wouldn’t believe it.

That’s when Jeremy decided to join us. “Whatcha guys talking about?” he asked curiously.

I knew what Devin was going to say before he even opened his mouth. “We’re talking about his Ricky obviously likes Midnight,” Devin replied matter-of-fact-ly.

“You are just now realizing this?” Jeremy responded rhetorically. They acted as if Ricky’s so called ‘crush’ on me was common knowledge. I felt my cheeks get hotter than lava and I looked down at my combat boots.

“I think the better question is does Midnight like Ricky,” Devin replied. He really knew how to make a girl feel uncomfortable. They both looked at me as if waiting for my answer.

“I don’t know,” I mumbled hoping someone would change the subject. I wanted to like him, I did, but I didn’t want a relationship and Jeremy knew that. I guess he was hoping that I changed my mind. He was always saying that I just needed to do what made me happy now instead of worrying about my future happiness. He was always saying ‘live in the moment,’ but I still haven’t figure out how to do that.

“I’ll take that as a yes,” Devin said pulling back on his grin. I simply shook my head at him. He would never understand the things that made me think the way I did. I didn’t want to fall in love, get married, have a kid and then end up like my mum and have my husband leave me and have to send my kid away because I couldn’t take care of them. That was my worst nightmare.

“Let me guess, you don’t know because you do like him, but you don’t want a relationship, right?” Jeremy suggested. I didn’t even have to respond for him to know he answer. “You need to do what makes you happy, Midnight,” he added putting his arm around my shoulder and pulling me into a side hug. Jeremy could practically read my mind. That’s why were best friends.