I can't stress how hard this is for me. you're breaking me apart bit by bit. I can't hold back much longer. the sadness comes in waves. I'm always close to tears. how can I survive without you? I can't. I'm told to prepare myself for your leaving. I cannot. you mean too much to me but I know it's almost time for you to go. I'm not mad at you for leaving. at least, I won't be. but right now it's hitting me that you won't come to my graduation and you might not come for my 16th birthday. excuse me while I cry for the seventh time today. you're breaking me. I love you too much to lose you. but the thing is you're already gone and nothing can save you. I hope your time lasts while you're here.
