I can't breathe and I'm 700 miles away from my blades so I will have to see the spots dancing in my vision until everything goes dark because I can't stop myself from this withdrawal. I've made him leave and I made him cry because I'm too fucked up to love someone for long and he hates me now and he told me so and now I'll be the girl who wasn't loyal but I swear I didn't know and I swear I didn't plan this and I know he won't read this but if I could go back and change what happened I would have but I can't change how I feel and I'm sorry I'm so sorry
