A boy named Blaze

Chapter 28

Matthew

The other day I told my dad, he didn't believe me at first but I told him and I guess something cracked in my mom's armor because he saw right through their lies. They are going on a "break" now, whatever that means. I'm staying with my Dad, of course, and my Mom is going to go live with her friends for a little. I didn't miss her at all, it was more Tara I was stressing about. I decided to go over to see her but I had to much energy, I would jog over to her house and ask if she wants to go on a run with me. That sounds good, then I can run and see Tara. I smiled and got into a pair of shorts and through on my runners.

I started jogging towards Tara's house, getting lost in thought. Could Tara really have cheated on me, she didn't seem like it today at school but maybe she is a better liar, maybe unlike my Dad, I cant see through the lie. It was about a half hour jog to Tara's house and so I had time to think about it. Tara is a good girl, I mean I know what Bry has said and she even admitted that she used to be a player, I can see that she holds herself like Angelia does, maybe even better. Is she another Angela, I guess those are the girls I like. I sighed to myself and ran a little harder, getting stressed and putting it into my running.

Before I knew it I was at Tara's street and I saw her walking out the door with Blaze. I stopped and started, what for, I don't know, maybe for her to blow him off. Waited of her to call him something, hit him, and prove that she was not going somewhere with him. She just smiled and walked over to a cheep bike. After Blaze got on she swung her leg over and sat on the bike, wrapping her arms around his torso. He started up the bike and drove off, leaving me there standing in the street.

So Angelia was right, aren't the players suppose to stay together or something. I felt tears prickle my eyes but I shook it off, I really liked her but I'm no baby. I turned around, no thought in my mind, and took off. I sprinted away from here, almost running away from everything and everyone. I didn'tstop sprinting till I got home and I ran in to my room. I sat there for a minute then grabbed my iPodand headed to the gym. I can see I am gonna do the same thing I did with Angelia but it doesn'tmatter, nothing mattered. I couldn't think, I just roboticly pushed my iPod into the dock and turned it up full volume.

It was so load it was almost like at a club but if I could, I would turn it up even more. I then went to anything and worked myself as much I could. I was running now and I probably would have been killing in pain right now but I liked the fiery feel I felt and other then that I was almost numb. I pushed myself even harder till I felt really sick then I stopped running, sprinted over to the trash can, and threw up.

I usually don't work myself till I throw up but well I cant help it at times like this. Then after all the food left my body I went back and started working out again. I still wasn't tired and I had way to much anger and sadness trapped inside of me. I wasn't ready to stop yet and I worked out again till I felt like I was going to pass out any second and threw up again a couple times. Then I slowly staggered over to my room and fell onto the bed, almost dead. I feel asleep then right as my head hit the pillow into a nice, dreamless, sleep. The music was still blasting in the other room but I knew someone would come turn it off and if they did oh well. There was no way that I had enoughenergy to do all that. I was out and I knew I would sleep for awhile, sadly waking up very sore.

Tara

"I cant believe I fell asleep again, it was like when I was a little kid but like worse because back then it was okay but now," I complained to Blaze as I opened my door. I let myself and Blaze in but he stood at the door," Its okay, you were just tired." I looked at him as he stood outside and then smiled and laughed, "you can come inside you know." He looked almost nervous and he slowly looked over at, a shy smile on his face, "I might head home, I'm feeling a little tired." I laughed at hisinnocent face look and some reason I imagined him as a little kid.

Then a thought accured to me, where are his parents? I mean I know Blake's dad left before he was born and his mother passed away at the age of five when she got hit by a stray bullet in a drive by. Before his mom passed away she taught him how to do stuff for himself and other things he learnt. He was emotionless till he met me, sometimes I'm surprised he even saved me. I mean I have seen him look at people being killed and killed people without batting an eyelash.

Yet I wonder about Blaze, I mean he is alone. "Where are your parents," I blurted out. He looked down and I wished that I had never asked. I didn't mean to it just kinda slipped out of my mouth. "You don't have to answer, I mean I'm sorry I asked, I mean," I babbled till he cut it. "No its okay, um my mom left me with my dad when I was two and then my dad left me with the adoption people when I was three but I didn't want to live there so I kinda escaped and so truthfully I don't know where my parents are," he murmured. "Oh," was all I could say.

"Yea," he said looking down. I looked at him and he looked up and met my eyes, giving me a small smile. I returned it and imagined him at three living with people he didn't know and then  trying to find for himself. Now him living on his own, just like Blake. That is something that I have never had to live through. I would die if my mom died, some people out there say they like it better that way, no attachments, but I know they are lying. I know they all want a mom to do their dishes and make their dinner. To tell you that everything is going to be okay and put a band-aid of you cuts and bruises. To teach you how to ride a bike and be sitting in the front row when you graduate high school. I know they miss it and want it and I'm so lucky to have it.

It makes my think of a good song by Tupac, Dear Momma. I smiled and I looked at Blaze andcouldn't help it. I reached over and messed up his hair like a proud father would have, "you did good." He smiled and jokingly glared but he was lightly chuckling. "We can share my mom," I whispered over when I saw the look of sadness in his eyes. It was the same words that I said to Blake before and we did share my mom. My mom even wanted to take Blake when we moved but well he wouldn't leave with us. I kinda wish he had though.

"Meh, parents are so last summer," he joked and I pushed him lightly. "Anyways I should be going home, I'm um, I'm glad you had a good time," He said smiling. I nodded and gave him a hug good-bye, "now dont forget to bring me next time, I want to see my bitches." He laughed, "so they are your bitches now?" I laughed at him and smiled. "Of course," I said as he walked out the door. I shut it behind him after waving bye and smiled.

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