Ancient History/Future Hearts

Just Say Yes

that night, while washing dishes i finally reckoned the moment had come. i shot a glance at mom who was removing a small stain of sauce from a plate. "so. Mom" i began.

she didn't say anything so i continued. "the boys are leaving for a tour next week. you know after... shooting the video and stuff"

she nodded, "yeah Maxx told me" i was sure she already knew what i was about to say. but she didn't want me to have an easy life so she didn't add anything.

"i was thinking... um... maybe i can go with them? mom please you know how much i love Maxx i just can't spend the rest of the summer away from him, i can't. and Cody and Dan and my friends i just can't let them leave like this. my summer would be a hell and i would be sad all the time and please mom i know you haven't seen me in ages but i promise i'll text you everyday and we can skype and" at that point i stopped. i was behaving like a little girl. but what my mom said left me with no words.

"ok" she simply answered.

well that had been easy. maybe too easy. "ok? so i can go?"

she turned to face me. "yes Nicole, you can go"

i was about to jump on her and scream with joy but she had yet to finish the sentence. "but i'll come with you."

"she's not coming. i don't care i don't want her" i said sucking up my juice through the straw.

Me and Maxx were chilling in the mall.it was the day after i talked to mom and i was still feeling all weird. she couldn't be serious. can you imagine having her on tour? nah man no way.

Maxx was looking in the distance, his cold coffee in his right hand. "you are right. she can't come. how can she even deal with sleeping in bunks and not showering for days? she's too much of an adult for that"

i didn't know if that was supposed to be a joke but i really didn't feel like laughing. and honestly i hadn't even thought about it like that. i didn't care if she would enjoy the tour, the reason why i didn't want her aound was because it'd have been embarassing as hell.

"how can she even think this can be ok?" i continued my rant. "Maxx we need to do something" i was looking at him now.

he sighed. "she's not letting you come is she?"

i shrugged. "i am not a baby anymore, if i decide to come she won't be able to stop me anyway. i probably shouldn't have even asked".

"yeah but she's your mom. remember that all she wants is to spend time with her daughter. you can't really blame her can you?"

i didn't answer. i didn't want to be mean to mom, especially after all she'd been through, with dad leaving and stuff. but i wouldn't allow her to come. not in a million years.

"look Nicky it's fine. i'll talk to her"

i raised my eyebrows and sheeplishy asked "would you really?"

"you don't need to use puppy eyes with me you know that? it never works anyway"

i let out a giggle of relief.

i was in my room, ear to the door. downstairs Maxx and mom talking. i couldn't hear a thing but i told myself that keeping an ear against the door could in anyway help. after a good half an hour i heard the front door close and i rushed to the window. Maxx was leaving. i heard footsteps on the stair. ok that was it. mom knocked. "Nicole?"

i threw open the door and stared at her praying inside it was a yes.

she just nodded reluctantly and i threw myself into her arms.

I couldn't wait any longer i needed to see him. i kissed mom goodnight and waited. my plan was to go out but considering it was dark outside mom would have asked too many questions. i'm an adult and i can do whatever i want obviously. but mom wouldn't get it. she'd just worry about everything as usual and i would lose too much time.

i waited until she turned on the TV and started watching a movie. i quietly went downstairs and managed to sneak through the door without getting caught. i carefully locked the door and i was off.

in less than 10 minutes i was in front of Maxx's place. instead of taking the easy way through the door as any sane person would have done, i decided for my favorite way in. i went straight to the big tree in their garden and started climbing it. Gosh too many memories. i made my way to the brunch protending towards his window. i'm pretty sure he was expecting my visit cause the window was open. i got in with an incredible agility. i had done this too many times. Maxx was on his bed, waiting. i grinned and he grinned back. i had no words to say and he gestured for me to sit next to him. so i did and he put his arm around my shoulders.

"so? what d'ya think? are you happy? i want you to be happy"

i got closer to him and put my face on his chest. i loved his smell. it felt like home.

"thank you" i whispered.

Several days passed. i spent as much time as i possibly could with mom, knowing i wouldn't see her for almost two months. i didn't neglect my friends though. our favorite place to hang out was the mall but set it off obviously had to do some rehearsals before the tour. and obviously i was always there. nothing to say about those days, really. nothing to say until wednesday.

i opened my eyes to my phone ringing like crazy. it took me some seconds to realize what was going on. i was deeply asleep before the ringtone woke me up. i stretched my arm and grabbed my phone which was vibrating against the bedside table. it was Cody. i took a quick look at the time before answering. 1.37 AM? what the?

"elloommm" i mumbled, my voice still unstable.

"Kiki?" that was a nickname only Maxx was allowed to use.

"dude what the hell? it's almost 2..." he probably perceived the annoyance in my voice - both from the nickname my friend used and for the fact that i had just been woken up. i hoped he had perceived it.

"Nicky we have a problem"

hi guys! not much to say about this one really, i just want to post as much as i can these days :)