Ancient History/Future Hearts

Talking It Out

Brie and Maxx spent the rest of the day together. i, on the other side, tried to avoid Maxx as much as possible. i had betrayed him. what kind of friend was i? an awful friend, i'm telling you. i actually avoided everyone for the rest of the day.

i thought no one had noticed but i got text at a certain point

where you at - Maxx

of course he wanted to know where i was. i knew he wanted to talk. i had no intention to do so though.

i'm busy. i will see you later

i texted back. he didn't reply. i could perceive he was mad. what i didn't know was how mad he was. 7/10? 9/10? who knew. i wasn't planning on finding that out. not just yet.

that night they played their set. they did their thing. then watched All Time Low. i chose to stay outside the venue and listen to the concert from there. i was feeling really bad and my stomach had started to bother me again. i had lost two of my best friends in less than a month. i was a disaster.

at a certain point the guys came outside. i kept my head down but i could feel Maxx's eyes on me. i just couldn't look at him anymore. i hoped he would forget everything and i knew he needed time. he had enough problems already. 

Steve was there as well "alright people. we have been given an hour. you can hang out and do whatever you want but make sure you're here by midnight or we'll leave you behind" he joked. i didn't laugh though. i wasn't in the mood.

i walked to the far end of the parking lot, as far away as possible from the others. i got my ipod out and started listening to music on shuffle. Fall Out Boy. not in the mood. Panic! at the disco. even worse. i finally went for The Kids From Yesterday by My Chemical Romance. God i loved that song. i hoped my brain would give me a break and rest for a little bit. maybe music could help. music heals. usually.

i noticed someone was approaching but it was to dark for me to actually figure out who it was. the guy was now standing next to me "hi Nicky" it was Cody.

wait Cody? from when had he started to talk to me again?

"mind if i sit down with you for a bit?" he asked.

i just ignored him. he must have taken that as a yes cause he took a seat. he kept on speaking.

"i just want you to know... i just... want to apologize. i know you're struggling but i don't know why. but i'm here" he said, gently touching my arm.

i winced. we stayed in silence for a while. i was trying to figure out what to say. i still wasn't looking at him. my brain started picturing all the past memories i had with him. when i watched as he played guitar and wrote a new song in his bedroom. when we played volleyball and i accidentally threw the ball right to his head. when we listened to music together on my bed. when we kissed. at that thought i started shaking a bit. without even realizing Cody had put his hoodie around me. i didn't know what to do. i was too nervous. that day had already been a nightmare.

my brain started screaming at me. it wanted me to hug him tight and never let him go. it wanted me to apologize and start crying in front of him. but my body just couldn't move. i tried to rest my head on his shoulder but it was like my neck was completely frozen. i couldn't move. i couldn't speak. i just stayed there. i hoped he didn't leave. i didn't want him to leave.

"i think i can guess what it's all about." he whispered at a certain point and it made me jump. i wasn't expecting him to talk. but he did. and i soon found out he had had the wrong impression. and unfortunately that caused troubles.

"it's better like this Nicky. you and Alex were never meant to be-"

he had done it. he had said that one thing that made me lose it. i jumped to my feet and without even realizing i found myself screaming at him.

"what do you think you know about it?! how do you know it was never gonna work?! you know nothing Cody i'm telling you!"

we was in shock. he was just staring at me, a weird expression on his face. i continued without mercy "so you just came here to tell me what i need to do with my life? you know nothing about me you're not me you can't tell me who is right for me! you are nobody" and i remarked that last word. i imediately felt guilty. what was i doing?

he managed to mutter "i'm just trying to protect you from getting hurt-"

"i don't need your protection! just leave me alone!" and i started walking furiously towards the other end of the parking lot. i hoped he wasn't following. i sat down and started to cry.

what was happening? i didn't know why it had bothered me so much. i didn't know why i had reacted like that. my nerves were too tense and i just couldn't take any more problems for now. i had just wanted to hug Cody. but the feeling had suddently disappeared. why had i treated him like that? he didn't derved it. i felt guilty and sad. extremely sad. and alone.

i heard footsteps but didn't raise my head. i already knew who it was. i just didn't know how to deal with it. i was about to scream to Cody's face that i was sorry.

"hey". hold on a second. it wasn't Cody.

"Alex" i whispered. i wasn't in the mood to talk to him really. i just needed to be alone.

"what's happening? i've barely seen you today and now you are... crying? what the hell man" he sounded worry.

"i really don't wanna talk about it" i sharply said, trying to get a hold of myself and forcing my eyes to stop watering.

"look Nicky, i don't know what's going on but i'm really upset to see you like this. you deserve to be happy. please talk to me whenever you need a friend, i'll always be here for you" he said sweetly and hugged me tight.

i felt new tears falling down my cheeks and wetting my hoodie. Alex pulled away and gently wiped my tears away "there. this is better"

i look at him in the eyes. the eye contact lasted for what seemed like forever. without even realizing i was getting closer to his face. to his lips. i closed my eyes.

then it happened. the last thing i was expecting.

Hello guys! cliffhangers? i love them haha i'm sorry to leave you like this but the next chapter should be up tomorrow. also, i have already planned the next few parts. i may or may not have written something which is kind of sickly sweet and i'm not sure if i like it. should i just cut it out? i don't know what to dooo help! if you have any suggestion, as always, let me know in the comments. love you guys, thank for reading and supporting me