Ancient History/Future Hearts

Good Morning Sunshine

the cool air made me shiver. it was dark outside but i spotted some steps not far from the bus and headed there. i sat down and put my face into my hands. i was about to cry but i managed to keep the tears away. i was so nervous i started to shake a bit. i was mad at Cody for saying that. Alex did care. Alex was special.

i heard someone approach and i raised my head, but i didn't really have to look. i already knew who it was.

"hey. mind if i join ya?" Maxx sat down next to me.

"before you even ask the answer is no. i'm not coming back to the bus, i don't want to see him again tonight"

"Nicky please don't be... just relax okay? i'm here now" i knew exactly what he was about to say. i was behaving like a child, ok i knew that. it didn't really matter though.

"Cody's been a dick to me tonight. i have all the rights to be mad. did you see?! how can he be so mean?! that was a huge scene of jealousy, i'm telling you"

he sighed.

"and what, Alex doesn't care about me?? you know what i actually think? i think he fancies me" i said triumphantly.

Maxx was staring at me "look Kiki, i say you shouldn't get your hopes too high..."

"oh please, you should see him around me"

"doesn't he have a girlfriend?"

i had to think for a second before answering stubbornly "maybe they're going through a rough time"

he looked me in the eyes "Nicky i just don't want you to get hurt"

"you know i love you Maxx. but you don't need to worry about it, there's no point really. i'll be just fine! and i'm happy now" i smiled.

he didn't seem persuaded. "please make up with Cody though. i know he has definitely overreacted tonight but he wants the best for you"

"he wants the best for himself." i wrinkled my nose. "he's the one who has to apologize. i'm certainly not doing that"

i could hear Steve calling us. "can we please go on the bus now?" he pleaded.

"fine" i sighed. "but give me your hoodie". he was clearly puzzled but he took it off and handed it to me. i put it on and i covered my head and part of my face with the hood. i saw from the corner of my eye that Maxx was shaking his head. i shrugged and walked towards the bus. Steve stepped back to let us on and shut the door behind us. i couldn't see him -the hood was covering my face- but i could perceive he was annoyed. i didn't raise my head even though i could feel all the eyes in the room on me. i went straight to my bunk and i crawled into a ball. i'm not sure why but i started crying softly, choking the sound with the pillow so that nobody heard me. i wanted to be alone. i had too many thoughts storming around in my head. Maxx's smell made me relax a bit and i eventually fell asleep.

i was woken up by the daylight. i had no idea what time it was but it felt like the right time to get up. i drew the courtain a little bit so i could have a preview of what would wait for me outside my haven. i couldn't see anybody. either i had slept in or no one was awake yet. i realized i had left my phone on the table so i couldn't check. i took all my courage and got up. i sneaked into the small toilet. there was a tiny mirror and i got almost scared by the image it was reflecting. i hadn't removed my make up the night before and now it was all smudged up and all over my cheeks. a proper mess. i started to carefully remove it from my face. i couldn't be bothered to do it all over again so i just decided not to wear any for that day. i got out and sat down at the table. i found my phone waiting for me there and i could finally check the time. it was 8.30. no wonder everyone was still asleep. i only then realized i was still wearing Maxx's hoodie. i really didn't want to take it off but i decided to change the clothes underneath. i went for a military green tank top and shorts. i got outside and started looking around.

there wasn't much there to be honest. we were in a huge parking lot. i could see ATL's bus from where i was standing - not too far away. i squinted and spotted what i thought was a diner, one of those open 24/7. it'd not have been the healthiest breakfast but that'd do. i headed in there and sat down at a booth. i could see the parking lot from the window. i took a quick look at the menu and soon called the waitress. i ordered some eggs on toast. i was starving, i hadn't eaten the night before. i had gone straight to bed after that fight with Cody. what the hell had that guy in his little head?!

thorugh the glass of the window i saw people approach. i took a better look. i knew those people. Alex, Rian and a couple of their crew members/friends entered the diner. i was sitting in a way that i was giving my back to the door. i decided not to turn around and ignore them. see what they would do. i heard the waitress invite them in and lead them to a booth on the other side of the room. i waited for a good 5 minutes. nothing happened. i sighed. did they not notice i was there or were they avoiding me? was Cody right when he said Alex didn't care for me?

i felt a tapping on my shoulder and i turned around to see Alex smiling wide.

"Good morning princess" he said sitting down in front of me.

"hi Alex" i smiled.

"could you use some company here? how come you're always alone when i see you?"

i let out a small laugh "i don't know. but it's not always like this i promise"

"should i believe you? ok i'm kidding. hey, mind if i ask my friends to join us? i was actually here with them i can't just ditch them like this"

"of course!" he wanted me to stay with his friends. he definitely cared. i didn't even know why i had had even the smallest doubt.

We had breakfast at the diner. they were all nice to me. i laughed a lot. i forgot everything else. i didn't care anymore i had just fallen out with one of my best friends. it was just me and Alex now. and the other people there.

half an hour later we were in the parking lot, walking towards the busses. the door of one of them swung open and Maxx, Zach and Austin came out. i waved at them and smiled.

"hello beautiful" Maxx said patting me on the head.

"hello!" i cheered back.

"slept well? oh you still have my hoodie on you petty thief"

"wowo careful with those terms uh?" i joked. "you can have it back" and i was about to take it off but Maxx stopped me taking my hand "you can keep it if you like. you'll give it back to me later"

"cool. thanks" i was feeling really happy. again, all of my negative thoughts had disappeared. the boys suggested we went to explore the city and i enthusiastically joined.

hi guys, sorry this one was pretty short  but this was part of  a longer chapter that i had to split it in half. the next one is going to be pretty interesting i think, so keep an eye out for that! also, bear with me guys, i won't be able to upload anything for the next few days as i'm going on holiday. hopefully i'll manage to post a new chapter (the other half) on friday though. i'll come back on sunday and hopefully start to post regularly every day as i've been doing until now. thank you for reading and have an awesome day :)