Ancient History/Future Hearts

Just friends?

as soon as i opened the door i found mom already there. she wanted to know everything and started asking questions as usual. i had left her a note that morning explaining i would have gone to the shooting, without mentioning the whole Cody thing obviously.

"how was it honey? did you have fun? can i see a preview when it's ready?" i ignored her and took off my shoes. i felt exhausted.

"what can i get you for dinner? we have some roast leftovers and you can have a salad. we've got plenty of veggies as well, i've been grocery shopping today..."

"you can stop it right there, i don't want that crap!" i spat out, but then i realized i was being a bitch and corrected myself "i mean, i'm not feeling well. it must have been something i ate or i don't know, maybe it's the weather."

" poor thing" mom looked worried "maybe you can take something for your stomach. and eat something, it'll be worse if you don't"

i interrupted her "it's okay mami. i just need some rest". before she could say anything else i gave her a kiss and ran upstairs. to my room. and i locked the door. kissing mom reminded me of what had happened. i just couldn't remove Cody's face from my mind. he was really good at acting. really really good.

i took off my clothes but didn't even feel like showering or getting in my pj's. i slipped under my blanket and turned the lights off. useless to say i didn't sleep at all that night. my thoughts were torturing me and my stomach was rebelling for the lack of food.

at 5.30 AM i decided to get up. there was no point in staying in bed. i sneaked downstairs trying not to wake mom up and got to the kitchen. i still felt a bit of nausea but i was literally starving. i grabbed some milk, a bowl of cereal, some cookies and silently started to eat. i prayed for the food to stay down and not come up and apparently it worked. once i was done i took a long shower and got dressed. around 6.30 i finally turned my phone on. i had received quite a few messages and i had 3 missed calls from Maxx. he was worried. obviously. i decided i would call him later, avoiding texting him at 6.30 cause i was afraid of waking him up.

among all of those messages there was no sign of Cody. i don't know why but i was expecting something from him. a simple "are you ok" would have been just fine. nothing. i waited until 9 staring at the wall and letting my thoughts run free - which was definitely a bad idea. but i had nothing else to do.

at 9 o'clock i picked up the phone and dialled a number.

"hello?" i heard a voice from the other side

"hi" i whispered.

"Nicky! we were all worried for you. how are you feeling?" Brie was being the nicest girl as usual.

"mph" i mumbled. "could be better"

"aww we missed you last night! we had pizza together, then Maxx drove me and Cody home. we were all pretty tired you know. especially the boys"

i felt the need to ask about Cody. how he had been, if he had talked about the kiss. anything.

"cool" i said instead.

"me and Maxx were planning on going to the park today, considering it's a lovely day. play some football or freesbee or whatever. fancy coming?"

i had to take a few seconds before answering. it'd make me feel better. "ok"

"awesome! see you at the sadness bench at 4" the sadness bench. that was fun. we used to call that way an old bench, the only one who hadn't been replaced yet. it was solitary and was right under the biggest tree in the park. it looked sad. and from here the name.